Sleep Now The Untroubled Sleep of the Angels

I am aware that I am late for this Tom Petty tribute post, but it is not unintentional. Death is a difficult topic to discuss right now. On a national level, the tragedy in Las Vegas serves a grim reminder that something is seriously wrong with this country I call home. On a personal level, my mother told me that the aunt who was like a second mother to my siblings and I growing up is losing her battle with cancer. So, it is a lot right now, but I will try to share my fondest memory of Tom Petty.

When I was young, I used to find my mother’s taste in music to be strange at times. I grew up in Brooklyn, so it was cool to listen to hip and R&B and pop and little else. My mother, on the other hand, listened to anything that made her happy. I guess I can credit my love of music to her when I think about it. Those music clubs that sent you all the CDs you wanted for a monthly charge had something to do with that too. Some of ya’ll are too young to remember that (LOL) but my mother introduced us to A LOT of different music because of those clubs.

One day I was watching MTV with my sisters and, as usual, we changed the channel the moment anything that wasn’t “good music” came on. Tom Petty’s “You Don’t Know How It Feels” came on, and since it wasn’t our taste we considered it bad and tried to change the channel. That’s when my mom told us to stop. Apparently, she loved the song, and because of that we had no choice but to listen and stare at her sideways while she singed along. It is seriously one of my favorite childhood memories because it dawned on me for the first time that music can reveal so much about a person to you. To me, that song gave my mother some comfort as a single mother of four children who felt no one understood the things she endured.

Anyway, it changed the way I viewed music forever. I came to love “You Don’t Know How It Feels”, and I came to love his other songs as I grew older, too. I loved “Mary Jane’s Last Dance”. I loved “Free Fallin”. I loved “I Won’t Back Down”. Most of all, I loved “Don’t Come Around Here No More”. That take on Alice in Wonderland in the music video was just the coolest thing to me in my youth, and it remains one of my favorite music videos to this date. Tom Petty really served as my bridge into not only rock music, but all the other genres of music that I used to skip on MTV or the radio. It’s a story that I tell Mark every time we hear a Tom Petty song. I’m sure he’s tired of it at this point. LOL…

… It really hurts to lose a part of my childhood like this. The last celebrity death that made me cry was Robin Williams, so I am not someone who suffers immense heartbreak each time a celebrity dies. I feel sympathy for their loved ones, but I do not pretend to be overwrought with grief. This loss was just too personal, though. As Robin Williams cheered me up during my childhood, Tom Petty opened my eyes to different music, and I cannot imagine how much pain his family must feel after losing such an incredible person. I am just a lowly fan telling a stupid story. They are the ones suffering the most right now, so I offer them absolute sympathy.

Rest in peace, Tom Petty. Thank you, thank you, thank you for everything.

To the people who were enjoying the magic that is music when some terrorist sensely murdered them, please rest in peace.

To my aunt… she is not lost yet, but if there is a heaven she deserves to be there, laughing her funny laugh with the angels.

I think this all that I have the heart to express right now. If I keep going on like this, I’m just going to end up crying and typing like an idiot, and I’ve been enough of an idiot for one lifetime. LOL…

Anyway, please take care everyone. We cannot control how we leave this world, but let’s all strive to be so incredibly generous and kind that we inspire others to be better.  Good vibrations and keep fighting, as always.

 

Radiohead + Hans Zimmer: Ocean Bloom

I’m so happy about Hans Zimmer and Radiohead working together for the Blue Planet II OST. My favorite band AND one of my favorite composers…*sigh* So, so, so, so happy. ghost_crying2

I already know whatever they make will be amazing because this version of “Bloom” sounds incredible when compared to the original version, and the original version is already incredible enough to me. I like that they found a way to take the chaotic sound of “Bloom” and organize it into this symphony. It’s so amazing! ghost_crying2ghost_crying2ghost_crying2

*sigh* I’m just going to post the original version of “Bloom” then bounce. I drained myself with all the fangirling I did at AWA yesterday (LOL), so I’m going to chill… until I have the energy to fangirl again. 😀

101: Oyasumi

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cute_uppercorner - Copy Introduction: I wonder how long I can keep up this cute format until I get lazy and move on to something easier emoji_excited - Copy. Well, it’s not so bad. The hardest part is finding all of the pixels and getting WP to stop descending into alignment hell when I try to move them around. Ugh. Suffer for cuteness. That is usually how it goes. Anyway, it should not be a problem as long as I keep copying the format each time. No need to repeat the same setup each time. Yadda, yadda, not important, etc. cute_lowercorner - Copy

 

cute_uppercorner - Copy Breath of the Wild: Shall I begin with my most recent obsession? Well, re-obsession? My overwhelming hatred for the weapon system is gone, and I can now enjoy BOTW completely. I have one more divine beast to go and I managed to get the master sword, so this is huge progress for me. I am now balls deep into a Zelda game again. Thank you, VG gods ghost_heart - Copy. Honestly, I think that a lot of it has to do with the change of consoles. I traded in my Wii U, Wii U games, and a few other games I don’t really play in order to get the Nintendo Switch for pretty cheap. I have to say… the game is *much* more enjoyable on the Switch. On top of the portability, the controller is also less bulky. I mean, I always thought the little mini-screen on the Wii U gamepad was nifty and all, but I didn’t like it so much that I missed it on the Switch. The Switch controller is far more comfortable. Smaller, for sure, and much easier to manage. So… yeah… maybe it was the Wii U’s setup that was turning me off from BOTW all along. I don’t know. Anyway, I uploaded a crap load of screenshots from the game of FB, but I’ll just post my favorites here. I’ll leave out the ones that too spoiler-ish.  cute_lowercorner - Copy

 

 

 

 

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cute_uppercorner - Copy Are Ya’ll Really Trying to Fuck Pennywise the Clown?: Natural selection is not coming for some people fast enough. *sigh* I saw several articles about people making sexual confessions about Pennywise–yes, the child-killing clown from IT–and I am just so tired. What is wrong with the human race? Seriously? What makes you look at a clown with a giant forehead who eats children and go: “Yep, I wouldn’t mind sleeping with him.” Please stop . Labelling the Babadook as an LGBT icon was confusing enough, but now apparently Pennywise is also being considered an LGBT icon on top of people writing gross confessions and smut fan fiction about him. You need to love yourselves. I know it’s hard to find decent people out there, but getting turned on by a creepy ass clown is really scraping the bottom of the barrel.   cute_lowercorner - Copy

 

cute_uppercorner - Copy All Together Now: Repeat after me: “Kerri is not a doll or a piggy bank. You cannot just pick her up when you are bored or shake her for coins when you are broke. She is a person. She has her own life. She was not made for you.” Repeat it until you die. Thanks. ghost_spinning - Copy cute_lowercorner - Copy

 

cute_uppercorner - Copy Mystic Messenger: Uh… I didn’t really fuck with V. I just pitied him the entire time, even when I got the normal ending where he took back some control of his life. It was still fun to play, nonetheless. I loved the idea of bringing Rika back to the RFA so that everyone could come to terms with the person she became. And, I know it is not a popular opinion in the MM fandom, but I also liked Rika. She is evil. Don’t get me wrong. But I also understand why she was able to form a cult so easily. She is very charismatic and her ideals are not… so terrible? There aren’t many places in the world where a person can be completely themselves. It would have been an ideal place for people like Ray, especially, who struggles with split personalities, but then there is the whole drugging members to manipulate them thing, and that is where I completely agree with the rest of the RFA (except for Yoosung’s dumb ass). In short, she’s a good villain. Her methods are evil but her intentions are good. That is a good villain to me. Uh, as for everyone else, they are still enjoyable in their own way. I think Yoosung is the only person who changed for the absolute worst because even when Rika told everyone what she did thus far he still tried to make excuses and blame it on V. Anyway, I hated that Ray got fucked over regardless of which route you took because he was the sweetest. Also… I spent most of the time wishing there was more Seven. Sorry, he’s the best. When he posted that picture of him on the Iron Throne I was done. 707 = best boyghost_heart - Copy  cute_lowercorner - Copy

 

cute_uppercorner - Copy “It’s From My Days in Milan, Boys!”: The level of excitement I witnessed from the FFXV fandom because of Iggy’s messy hair in the Episode Ignis clip… *sigh*… Glorious. My first reaction was pretty much, “Damn, son, what happened?!” followed by, “He is 50% more attractive now” followed by, “Oh shit, it’s Ravus!” Yeah, Iggy’s messy hair is actually kind of cute. He is always really prim and proper, so something fucked up must be going on. Prayer circle for Ignis~ I mean… We know it’s going to end with him going blind… but let’s still do a prayer circle still. ALSO—also—I noticed that image of Ifrit in the “additional story content” slideshow and I was really happy. I think his role in the plot might finally get fleshed out! I hope Tabata read all those theories about the Pitioss Ruins, went “damn, that was deep as fuck,” and then made it canon. Do it, Tabata-san. Fucking do it.  cute_lowercorner - Copy

 

cute_uppercorner - Copy Final Fantasy IX: As happy as I am about FFIX being released on the PS4 I already did a playthrough last year, so everything is still kind of fresh in my mind and I am not entirely motivated to do another playthrough again. That theme is nice, though. You can never have enough Vivis, and yet the theme has like five of them WITH Freya. #blessed   cute_lowercorner - Copy

 

cute_uppercorner - Copy Okay, That’s Enough Forests For One Lifetime: My story is beginning to feel a lot like a Zelda game because I am trying to get my characters out of the forests and into the mainlands but it is taking forever. I know it will end in exile for Odin and Elda. I just don’t want the forests to come off as a backwater place where everything is mystical and their system of law is just some ancient being making all the rules. I don’t necessarily hate that trope but I did not want it for the Forested Domains. It’s supposed to be a nation like any other nation where anyone can go there and live, but if you’re an outsider it still feels like a foreign place. Those details take work and time since I try to avoid lengthy expositions. I just can’t wait to move the story to the mainlands because I have so many ideas for the cities and towns there. I like the idea of exploring places that are already ruined but are slowly rebuilt—kind of like Hyrule in Breath of the Wild or Spira from FFX. Inspiration is great until it makes you impatient… that is the hard part. Ugh, and the rest of the cast is in the mainlands, too! I need to write faster! ghost_crying2 cute_lowercorner - Copy

 

cute_uppercorner - Copy Home Apartment Improvement: I am usually ashamed of my splurges, but my recent splurge is actually pretty good! I got cookbooks, new pots, new pans, new cooking utensils, new knives, and a much needed apron. I’m also trying to decorate our kitchen and bathroom because at the moment it is… the bare minimum. It has been bugging me for years, so I’m glad that we’re in a financial place where I can start to do that. Once again, I am usually ashamed of splurges, but this is home. I spend most of my time here. I should make it as comfortable and pleasant as possible, you know? That is my main project right now: make home better.   cute_lowercorner - Copy

 

cute_uppercorner - Copy …Again?: Speaking of home, I am beginning to loathe this new management that we have. Ever since they came along there have been unit inspections pretty much every month. I feel like the new managers are just nosy and trying to find excuses to parade around everyone’s apartment. Actually, the first manager used to get with her friends who didn’t even work here and enter people’s apartments without warning. This was years ago, but one day I had just gotten out of the shower and I was in the middle of getting dressed when they just fucking barged in, giggling and chit-chatting like they belonged there. I had to run to the room to get dressed, and by the time I left the room they were giggling about the washer running because… doing laundry is funny? As soon as I came out of the room I was pissed, and they probably sensed that I was pissed because they quickly left. *sigh* Yeah, we had a long rant with our old neighbors about that. Mark and I still rant about that. It’s just rude as fuck. I know the apartment technically belongs to the company that owns this place, but if we pay you money every month then at least give us some fucking rights and privacy. Fuck. Why do people insist on being annoying and inviting themselves into the lives of others without permission? Just fuck off and find something better to do with your time. Shit. -_- cute_lowercorner - Copy

 

cute_uppercorner - Copy Closing: There is actually a lot going on right now, but if I got into every little thing then I would be here forever. Let’s just say that I am doing my best, I am making improvements, and I am being patient. Also, I am finding my ways to have fun along the way. That’s all that I can really do, right? There are a few games, movies, and shows that I am looking forward to, so I might discuss those in the future… if I am up to it. I know I tend to go months between these entries. As always I want to start uploading artwork but I’m so damn lazy. Just thinking about it makes me want to take a nap. I’ll see what I can do. *sigh* Gotta update my website too… maybe share some of my story… finish some books… finish some games… I’m just busy, busy, busy. Oh! And Halloween is around the corner! Yes! As far as I am concerned, all of October is Halloween. It’s just spooky month. November is food month. December is presents month. I am twelve, apparently.  ghost_tongue - Copy cute_lowercorner - Copy

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That’s about it! Sending good vibrations~~~

Edit: Check the URL! I’m trying premium for a year. Let’s see how it goes. >>

Björk: The Gate

 

MY SPIRIT HAS BEEN CLEANSED. THE FILTH HAS BEEN WASHED AWAY. I AM UNSULLIED. MY WIG HAS BEEN SNATCHED. MY SCALP IS REFRESHED. GROWTH HAS BEGUN ANEW. I AM BLINDED BY THE LIGHT. DIVINE GODDESS BJORK, WHO DWELLS IN A DIMENSION TOO HOLY FOR MANKIND, HAS COME TO THIS LOWLY PLANET AND RENEWED MY WORTHLESS EXISTENCE WITH PURPOSE. I HAVE BEEN BLESSED. CRYYYYYINNNNG.  

 

 

 

 

* On a serious note, I am really looking forward to her new album. The acceptance and joy that comes after the heartbreak of Vulnicura. My body, spirit, mind, etc, is ready. ( T u T )

YISA 005: A Place To Call Home

Feeling… Thankful
While Listening To“Riding (Day)” – Breath of the Wild

 

 

The past three days have been… adventurous. Let’s start with the first day. I was not awake when it happened, but Mark told me when I woke up Monday morning  that the power was gone. This is not really abnormal where I live. I would say every other month the power goes off for about 30 minutes to 2 hours, and it’s usually preceded by a scary explosion sound in the distance. Um… anyway… not a big deal. It was my assumption that with this whole hurricane ordeal we would just have to deal with the inconveniences for a few hours. That was before noon on Monday. Then came night time on Monday. I would say a good 8-10 hours passed, and we did not hear shit from the electric company besides “we’re working on it”. At that point we just had to make do. We went to Kroger, stocked up on canned foods, got our candles ready, got our flashlights ready, and just tried to have fun with it. “Fun” being Halli Galli and Scrabble and naps, basically. Lol. Oh, yeah. And everything within a five mile radius of our place was a dead zone, so I had no service on my phone either. Needless to say, it was an interesting day. I even found my Vita and played a shitload of games. FF Tactics, Xenogears, Chrono Cross, Final Fantasy VI–all the good shit I downloaded eons ago. All of that aside, Mark and I went to bed around midnight and told ourselves that we should definitely have power by Tuesday because we couldn’t go 24 hours without power… right? 

 

 

 … And this is the part in a sitcom where they cut to the next 24 hours, and the person who spoke too soon is in the exact same situation but 200% angrier. Lmao. Actually, I can’t say I was angry. I was just… disappointed. We get up Tuesday morning with no power and decide, “Fuck it. Let’s just go deposit this check (basically, Mark’s check from Publix for stocks).” We leave around 9am. …The fucking bank wasn’t opening until noon ^^. Go back home for FF Tactics and naps. Go back to the credit union three hours later. Ta da! Check deposited! With no issues! *victory fanfare* With the extra money, we stock up on the supplies we couldn’t get due to our limited funds beforehand, and we head back home for another day in the dark. But, honestly, that depressed the shit out of us. Mark suggested we go on an impromptu date, and I’m glad that he did. We had pho, we got another board game to play (Arkham Horror), we got some things to read (Saga 44-46), and then we headed back home to prepare for the night. Honestly, the moment I stepped foot in the house I was in a crummy mood. (1) I had this cloud hanging over me because I knew the remaining hot water that was in the water heater would run out soon, and (2) everything remotely electronic was about to die including our phones. After ranting with Mark about how annoyed I was by the whole thing we decided to check into a hotel. BEST DECISION EVER . Keep in mind that I have not stayed in a hotel room for years, so this was exciting for me. We checked in (after getting hounded with promotional bullshit that neither of us had the patience to deal with), went in our room, and we instantly felt better. First of all, this place (still here >>) has a mini-kitchen, a living room, a bathroom, and a room, so it feels like home. Secondly, we both went 24+ hours without a long, hot shower or TV or the internet or all the things we take for granted, so we were losing out shit. Lmao! Anyway, after settling in and having dinner that wasn’t in a can and eaten in the dark (*sobs*) we went to bed, intending to check out Wednesday morning whether or not the power was back to save money.

 

 

 Yeah… We didn’t go anywhere. Lol. That’s actually my fault. The change in environment made it really hard for me to sleep last night, so I probably got… two hours of sleep? We were about two hours from checking out and Mark was in the shower, so I decided to squeeze in a quick nap before packing everything thing. I wake up hours later, freaking out because it was way past noon, and Mark was like, “It’s okay. I added another day for us”. Thank you, mochi ! Naturally, I went back to sleep (lmao), and Mark got us breakfast/lunch/brunch/whatever while I was sleeping so… I cannot thank Mark enough. Seriously. Anyway, I eventually got my lazy ass up and joined Mark in doing the run around while we continued waiting out this lack-of-power ordeal. We checked up on baby cat (he pretty much ignored us lol), grabbed some more clothes, bought some things at Wal-Mart, walked around Best Buy, and then came back to the hotel to add another day since it didn’t seem like the power would return until the weekend. Or at least that’s what GA Power was saying. BUT–but–we got our power back! Of course, this happened like an hour after we added an extra day, but it is no biggie. We cancelled the extra day, so we’ll be checking out tomorrow afternoon and heading back home. Finally. I’m so homesick right now that it doesn’t make any sense. I can’t wait to go back home! 

 

 

 Well, that should cover my entire experience with Hurricane Irma. The TL;DR version is that I was mildly inconvenienced. Seriously. Three days without power is nothing compared to the people who died or lost loved ones or lost their homes or are still going without power right now. So, it goes without saying that I am extremely lucky. Whatever it is I bitch about here is tiny, trivial shit. I am fully aware of that. Just wanted to let that be known before I continue with some minor, pointless bitching I am about to do. So, time for the minor, pointless bitching that in no way compares to what others are enduring. Tomorrow when I go home I have to dump everything in my fridge. This is the part of the power outage that we were not looking forward to at all, but there is really nothing that we can do about it. The fridge will be cleaned out completely and then refilled with the essentials. Actually, there may be more than the essentials since Mark and I had this grand idea to have a tiny feast to celebrate several things. Coming through this hurricane unharmed, Mark getting a new job, our financial situation taking a major turn–these are all things that we wish to celebrate once we are back home and settled in. I already yelled “HAM” the moment we had this idea, so everything else is pretty much up to Mark. If there is a feast I will always have two questions: “Where is your ham? And where is your macaroni and cheese?” Lmao. Anyway, I look forward to it. I plan to spend all day cooking, and having plenty of leftovers for the next few days! It will be a good homecoming celebration–amongst the other things we want to celebrate. ^^

 

 

…Uh…I think that is it.

Sorry about the weird-ass format. I mentioned wanting to change it in the past, so I’m considering this image-friendly, colorful format with paragraphs instead of bullets. Of course, that all depends on how I feel. If I feel lazy then I will probably end up doing the same shit. What else…?

I think that’s it.

I hope everyone is doing okay. I’m very, very, very, very glad that my Florida and Georgia family and friends came through these hurricanes in one piece. I hope everyone else is doing okay, too.

Please, mother nature, no more hurricanes! 

YISA 004: THANKS

WOW. So everything is shutting down in metro Atlanta because of Hurricane Irma… I should be worried, right? *sweats nervously* J/K. I’m still convinced it’s just going to be a bunch of rain, but if I die… real talk… someone find Link and treat him like the prince-cat that he is. If we both don’t make it then bury me with him like a pharaoh or something. Obviously, I want to be next to Mark if we go. Or just scatter our dust in the same place. We’re pretty lax people. Everyone knows that. We just like to be attached to each other like a gross mutant all the time, but it makes us happy. Do it. Don’t make us haunt you. LOL. Uh… I’m taking my PS4 to my grave because I’m petty and I don’t want anyone else to have it (LOL) but everything else that survives is fair game. Uh… Love ya’ll. It’s been mostly shitty when I’m not with my loved ones, but otherwise I had an okay time with all the people I’m cool with. If you have the audacity to come to my grave and not tell me about all the games and movies I’m missing… man… Gonna be so pissed. Ugh. I’m so dumb. I’m 95% joking but the 5% that is considering the possibility of shit being terrible is not even concerned. I don’t care if I’m in danger or if I die, but please please please take care of Mark and my family and my friends and my cat. That’s all I hope. *sigh* Let’s just hope it’s a bunch of rain and wind and everyone is making the water industry richer for no reason. Everyone stay safe. Once again, love ya’ll. Sending good vibrations until it’s all over~~~~

V ROUTE IS HERE

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YISA 003: Breakable, Unbreakable; Shakeable, Unshakeable.

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  • If there is one thing I always worry about in life it is money. A lot of that has to do with the environment that I grew up in, but the rest of it is just living in a capitalist society where we don’t even show compassion for our sick unless they have money. Some call me a bleeding heart liberal/socialist. I just call that having a soul. Seriously, how do these people worship someone like Jesus and have absolutely no empathy whatsoever towards the sick or poor? This got political fast. Whoops. Then again, not being political in this current society… it is like not sweating when it’s hot. It’s just a reaction to the things that are always in my face. I am working on barriers. Like, what is the real world equivalent of deodorant in that metaphor? Avoiding all human interaction? Never watching TV or going on social media? Ugh. I am so off the point that I might as well move the point to next bullet. LMAO
  • Once the worry about money goes away, I can’t really say that I give a shit about any job. My loyalty is to money when it comes to careers. I sure as fuck don’t wake up at stupid hours in the morning to drive through stupid traffic and deal with stupid coworkers because it’s fun. Once money is out of the equation, workplaces can burn to the ground for all I care. I think once I realize that then I lose all attachment and I feel better about things. My priority is always the survival of my loved ones and myself. Everything is just needless bullshit. I am young. The world is my oyster. Opportunities are abundant if you look for them.
  • Anyway, I am on the hunt for a new job. That is the gist of it. I am tired of working in this biased environment where if you are not a middle-aged yuppie with children then you don’t get the same privileges as everyone else. It makes sense that I should have the same responsibilities as my peers, but it doesn’t make sense that I should receive the same privileges as them. Does that make any sense? The reward for working at a company for a long time is your paycheck. You do not get to isolate and make examples of younger, newer people because you have your prejudices. I am just tired of it. I am tired of being talked down to like a child. I am tired for accepting punishment for mistakes while watching my older coworkers get free passes to do anything they want. Changing my shift by 30 minutes is considered a special privilege. Meanwhile, my coworkers can come in two hours later than the standard start of a shift and leave hours earlier than the end of a standard shift, and this is fine. I have no right to request the same flexibility because I do not have the burdens of old age and children. Yes, by all means, punish me for having a miscarriage and not jumping on that flaming shit of a boat again. While you’re at it, punish me again because I was still in diapers when you started working for this company. That sounds completely fair.
  • … I did enough ranting with Mark. I think I had tears of frustration for like five minutes before Mark set me straight and reminded me there are some things worth crying for and this job is not it. I need to do more than find a better, fairer opportunity. I need to go back to school. That is my one goal: go back to school. Do something more with the brains that I have then have others pat me on the head for being “a smart girl”. And, damn it, if you are in the same boat then do something better for yourself too. I have too many friends who are brilliant as hell but they accept shitty treatment because they are afraid of taking the risk. I weep for them because I know exactly why they sell themselves short. I am glad that Tiffa encouraged me to consider going back to school. It really lit a fire in me that this shit job has just been dousing in gasoline unintentionally. I suppose I should say thank you? …No. I’ll pass.
  • I dread being the type of person who talks incessantly about their work problems so let’s just end it here. I am breaking my own rule after all. Once I step foot into my apartment I never talk about work. Leave all of that bullshit at the door, right?
  • Uh… What else is on my mind?
  • I AM A WRITING MACHINE.
  • I will have four days off come labor day weekend, so I want to write like crazy.
  • Oh, right. I could not begin my Witcher 3 replay because my disc is damaged (WHY?). So now I have to download the GOTY edition which is pretty sweet as far as deals go, but it will not read my old files because my copy and the GOTY copy are considered two completely different games. So… yeah… no new game + for me. :’)
  • I might move on to my Dragon Age: Inquisition replay. I abandoned it last year, but now that I have the complete edition with all of the DLCs and special items I want to get back into it immediately. I was going to restart as a human warrior but… Knight Enchanter. I have to be a Knight Enchanter aka Dragon Slayer. LOL. I’ll stick to the elf mage that I made for now.
  • Um… I don’t know what to say about these Final Fantasy XV related updated. The pocket edition of FFXV looks pointless. The PC version of FFXV is not pointless but it is irrelevant to a non-PC gamer like me. The Assassin’s Creed DLC-thing is… okay? I mean, I love Final Fantasy and I love Assassin’s Creed… but seeing them together is kind of confusing. LOL. Noct looked really cool in his assassin gear though, and I like the idea of being an assassin in Lestallum while the rest of the chocobros are just hanging out somewhere. At least it’s not like the Chocobo Festival where Noct is completely alone, you know? Plus, Iggy and Prompto looked so adorable in their assassin gear. Gladio, on the other hand, is just… Gladio. He’s so brawny and muscular that he just looks grossly attractive in everything he wears. Yeah, yeah, I know. Gladio is hot, water is wet, bears shit in woods, etc. Anyway, I’ll play it. No one asked for this (LOL) but I’ll play it. I am a bit annoyed that Square made FFXV fans submit this survey asking what they wanted–and I believe the results were “MOAR ARDYN”–and didn’t make any content based on the options, but at least they’re not pulling a Bioware. Fucking livid that there are no DLCs coming for Mass Effect: Andromeda at all but multiplayer garbage. Then again, everyone was so vocal about their hatred for this game that I am not surprised. I did not hate it or love it. I was looking forward to Bioware pulling a Square and dropping all types of new content in response to their fans being rightfully pissed about an incomplete product being sold to them at the price of a new product. *sigh* When did the gaming world become this dramatic? I remember when games showed up finished, DLCs came in the form of sequels that were full games, and no one was having a complete meltdown over bad games like they do now. Even No Man’s Sky, which was comically insulting to the gamers that waited for it, received so much vitriol that its subreddit had to be shut down (temporarily?). It’s that bad now. -_-
  • Last episode of Game of Thrones on Sunday? SHIIIIIT. This season feels so incredibly, incredibly, incredibly rushed, but it’s kind of like ice cream in the summer. Even though most of it melts away before you can enjoy it, the ice cream itself is still delicious. All of these battles are delicious. Dany x Jon are delicious (I am disturbed how much this series made me passive to incest D:). Tormund’s growing infatuation with Brienne is delicious. I can still enjoy it as it is.

 

I think that is it. I am thinking about getting a premium WordPress account so that I can really enjoy this blog more than I already do. Just ranting about dumb shit… it feels so good. LOL. But as good as it feels I really need to start thinking about making a blog just for my art and stories. I’m on it. >>

Good vibrations~~~ Fight the power~~~ All that good shit~~~

Weiss Kreuz Gluhen OP

Never seen this anime but this song is my shit.

(I’ll try to post more than songs I like, I guess.)

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