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☆彡 I finally spoke to an admissions representative from Full Sail University about the steps I should take within the next few months. *sigh* I don’t know how I feel. I guess the closest emotion I can relate to is relief. When I think about working in such a creative industry and someday brushing shoulders with fellow geeks/nerds, I think to myself: “Finally.” Long overdue!

☆彡Speaking of things that are long overdue, Mark and I finally got to hang out with Tiffa this week. I had a blast! And, as always, I laughed plenty. I really can’t wait until we can hang out again. Man…I should find a way to get Tiffa, Daniel, Brandon, Mark, and myself to all hang out together. Considering the headache I got from laughing too much with Tiffa and the headache I got from laughing to much with Daniel and Brandon, I think my head would explode from the combination of headaches. LOL

☆彡 I have always been fascinated by people like the Buddha (Siddhartha Gautama), Jesus Christ, Martin Luther King Jr., Mohandas Gandhi, and the Dalai Lama who responded to aggression with passiveness. They have been spat on, insulted, disrespected, pushed, punched, kicked, whipped, had rocks thrown at them, exiled, threatened, and some were assassinated by the very people they swore to love tirelessly. Some may hear about that and pity them, but I don’t. They should not be pitied. They should be admired for possessing a strength that is rarely acquired in this world. It is a common misconception that losing your temper takes strength, but anger is easy. Harming others is easy. It is so easy that animals can do it. Babies can do it. The intellectually challenged can do it. But to overcome anger, and even turn negative energy towards a positive goal…it is beyond admirable. It is respectable and beautiful at the same time. I have no intention of striving for the social standard of strength. Those standards were made by average people with average intelligence and average self-control. Even calling people like that  ‘average’ is being too generous. It really does take a lowly person to prey on others, and feel empowered by inflicting misery. I don’t strive to be a lowly or average. So, I don’t follow the ideals of those types of people. I want to be strong. I want to be peaceful. I want to constantly improve myself and improve the world around me, even if it gets me hated, laughed at, abused, or whatnot.

☆彡 I didn’t get any gaming done this weekend. I guess I just wasn’t in the mood. All that I wanted to do was sleep. Even then, I didn’t get much sleep because of Link. He’s so demanding! I feed him and play with him before I go to bed. Four hours later, he’s poking me in the face for more food and games. So I feed him and play. I go back to sleep. Then he decides to play: “Let’s trot across Kerri’s ribcage while she’s sleeping because it’s funny to watch her writhe in pain.” LOL. At the end of the day, he is a cat…and Mark and I are just his means of survival and entertainment. We are servants to his cuteness! Cats really are evil. Anyway, no gaming.

☆彡 Speaking of games, I ended up sacrificing Ashley instead of Kaiden. I like Ashley FAR more than Kaiden, but it was better to keep Kaiden in the end. One, I don’t need two tanks (I am a tank and so is Ashley). Two, Kaiden dying on Virmire is so…anticlimactic. When Ashley dies, she restores the honor that her family lost by being associated with the first human to surrender to the aliens. She dies with the comfort that her father and God are waiting for her in the end. Her death just seemed more right for the storyline. Kaiden, though, is still suffering from the torment he faced as a child. He is just learning to overcome it. To have him die on a Virmire as just “that guy with the biotics” seems a bit sad to me. I guess if  anyone in my party could become a Spectre in Mass Effect 3, I want it to be Kaiden. Then again, Ashley would restore honor to her family by becoming a Spectre too, but…man…this was not easy! It still isn’t! I am having choose-a-character-to-kill remorse. It is a tough call to make. *sigh* Well, it’s not the end of the world. The next time I replay (and I will replay), I am going to save Ashley. So, for now, I just have continue with this plot of mine and see if it was for the best. By the way, I am not having my Shepherd pursue a relationship with Kaiden. I guess my theme should give away who I’d like my Shepherd to pursue. Fufufu~ I adore Liara as a character, so I am not against them getting together. Sure, I would never get with an asari if I were in Mass Effect world, but I am not Shepherd. I control her and her choices, but I already have this mental picture of the type of person I want her to be…and she is not like me. Maybe I’ll make a Mary-sue Shepherd next time. LOL

☆彡 I am still working hard on Mythos, domain modifications, and my artwork. I am also starting a new RPG Maker project to practice for the Game Design program I want to attend. I’d like to focus on one project during the entire duration of courses. So, when I work on character development it will be characters from this project. When I work on storyline development it will be the storyline from this project. I’m sure you get my drift. Anyway…I have no idea where to begin. I’ve been so focused on Mythos for years that I kind of lost interest in making any other story.

☆彡 I’m ready to get my own house. -_-

☆彡 I received this really, really, really nice journal: 400 pages, acid-free paper, beautiful cover, and it’s just…it’s really pretty. I’m too afraid to write in it. LOL. Actually, I’ve been working on a list of things that I can use the journal for just so I can finally use the journal. It’s really silly. I should just write some random sentence in it to break the ice…but that would ruin it…and if I ruin a page then I have to rip it out…and if I rip it out then it falls apart. IT NEVER ENDS.

Later. ♥

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