074: I Thought I Could Organize Freedom

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☆彡 First thing first, the 26th birthday. It was a blast. Despite having to spend the start of it dealing with emission and car tags, Mark and I managed to make it enjoyable. Afterwards, we saw Pacific Rim. I really liked it. It was like a 2-hour live action anime about mechs and giant monsters. If that is right up your alley then you should definitely see it . Um…where was I? Ah, yes. After the movie we had lunch. After lunch we did some browsing in various stores. After browsing we had tres leche cake, watched movies, and made Japanese-style curry for dinner. Overall, it was exactly how I like my birthdays: peaceful, fun, private, and filled with my favorite things. I hope all of my birthdays are like this. As Mark said, my birthday is technically the start of the year for me, so I hope to see more good things until this time around in 2014.

★彡 I am loving the free Assassin’s Creed 2 DL from XBL along with all the recent updates from Animal Crossing: New Leaf. Nookling Junction upgraded to a bigger 24-hour store, Sabel (such a cutie ;.;) gave me permission to use QR codes–I am now dressed as Bioshock Infinite‘s Elizabeth thanks to that, and a new shoe store opened. Let’s just say that I’m glad I’m not even half the fashionista IRL that I am in ACNL. I spent roughly $1,000 bells on shoes alone. That does not translate well in reality.

☆彡 Speaking of Bioshock Infinite, I finally finished the game. That ending was insane! At least to me. I was not expecting that at all. Veeeeeery good ending. And also a very, very, very good game. This game is worthy of all the praise it receives. It is amazing! /fangirling I can’t wait to get my own copy so I can avoid the headache of rushing and returning it promptly. 1999 mode without any Dollar Bill vending machines is most likely my next step in BI. Let’s see how that goes.

★彡 Interracial relationships are not for thin-skinned people. I cannot press that enough. You have to accept early on that racist comments will come, and they will not stop coming. Furthermore, these comments will come from people of all races, ages, genders, backgrounds, etc. They will even come from your family and friends. These individuals may even be multiracial themselves (this has happened to us), or in their own interracial relationship (this has also happened to us). That is why it is so important for both parties in an interracial relationship to be tough. More than tough, you have to train yourself to not become angry about it. You’ll only damage your sanity on behalf of some ignorant lowlife. It’s an awful trade to make. One thing Mark and I learned over the years is to just laugh at people like that. They’re clowns if they honestly believe their 1913 mentality will translate well in 2013.

Spoiler alert: it doesn’t.

☆彡 I am entirely obsessed with the Dangan Ronpa series right now. I found the LP archive for both DR1 and DR2, and I pretty much went on a nonstop reading spree soon after. Of course, I am following the anime as well. Even though I know what’s going to happen, it’s neat to see it in animation. I heard the games were getting localized, too, but I’ll have to see if that’s true. I’m excited either way. On a side note, I really want Monobear’s ability to push a button and punish people. Where can I buy that? Home Depot?

★彡 That Superman/Batman movie announcement. *falls down* But also that lack of Wonder Woman announcements. *stands up and walks away*

☆彡 If you didn’t know, Adobe is giving out free copies of Photoshop and other programs. It’s straight from the company as opposed to some seedy background website. So, get it while you can! Also, the ASOIAF boxset is on sale on Amazon. Get that too! (I promise I’m not a saleswoman for Adobe or GRRM or something)

★彡 Being held back by own skill level makes me want to ram my head into a brick wall until there is nothing left for my neck to hold. Yeah, yeah, I know. Practice makes perfect. I’m working on it…

☆彡 I am beginning to hate sleep. On some days, I welcome a little nap here and there, but on most days I feel like sleep is just wasting time. Being tired feels like being nagged. I only go to bed when I find that my mind can’t do anything else but think about going to bed. My better days are the days when I don’t sleep at all. I am trying to train myself to live off of naps scattered throughout the day. A little four hours at nights. An hour around lunchtime (since I never seem to be hungry around lunch hour). An hour or two around evening. Before I know it, I’d have accumulated 6-8 hours of sleep. It’s a tricky experiment…but an experiment I’ll try nonetheless.

★彡 After reading Equus, I am 100% sure that I have to see the play now. Another thing to add on my “I Should Do This But I Probably Won’t Because My Day-To-Day Habits Are More Comfortable” list. I will say this though. If the message of Equus is what Dr. Dysart spoke about when he said he envied Alan (basically, he believes it is better to have psychotic levels of passion over monotony), I will have to politely disagree with that message. Perhaps it is the fact that “moderation, modesty, and mercy” is my most important mantra for life, but I strongly believe that everything needs a balance. You can be religious without being a zealot. You can like horses without sexualizing them. Conversely, in the case of Dysart, you can be a part of a marriage that isn’t infuriatingly dull. This is why I do not like extremes in the first place. In some cases, yes, extremes are necessary, but choosing a harmful choice when the middleground is harmless seems…unnecessary.  Then again, it is possible that I’m completely overlooking something obvious due to my bad habit of over-analyzing the littlest things. For example, it is likely that Dysart is insane himself; therefore, questioning his logic would be illogical. His dream may be an indicator of that. It is not the violent aspect of it that hints at his possible insanity, but the obvious connection it has to his profession as a child psychologist. He feels (and clearly stated this) as if every time he cures patients like Alan of their madness, he is ridding them of their passion–that same passion he yearns for in his marriage and life in general. Eh…once more, I’m probably over-analyzing. So, I will just end this by saying that I enjoyed the book/play, and I look forward to other interpretations of it. Yes…let’s end this. It’s dragging on. LOL

☆彡 I am annoyed by individuals who know that a relationship is either never going to happen or is already over, yet continue to force it. Even if I am not a part of an ordeal like that, I still want to scream: “Move on already!” Maybe this is why my pity towards Jorah Mormont went from existent to non-existent so quickly. It is clear that he has strong feelings for Dany, but the fact that he just won’t leave her alone is starting to get on my nerves.  I suppose the main reason why this is a pet peeve of mine is the arrogance. It does take a lot of nerve to listen to someone say “This relationship isn’t going to happen” or “This relationship is done”, and reply with: “Yes, it is! You’ll see! I’ll show you! You just don’t know any better! You’ll change your mind because I’m good for you and you know it!” It just completely disrespects someone who has the right to say “no”. I have a strong feeling that Jorah is going to drive himself over the edge in the end (because sleeping with prostitutes that look like Dany and kidnapping Tyrion to “please” Dany isn’t over-the-edge enough?). I hope GRRM doesn’t end up romanticizing this type of behavior the way romance stories do. The whole following-someone-across-the-globe-to-publicly-declare-your-love bullshit really needs to stop. It just gives men, especially, the horrible idea of stalking women who aren’t interested in them because they believe women always say the opposite of what they really want. Some women may meet that description, but most of them do not. When a woman is done with you, she is done. Stalking isn’t cute. It’ll just end up getting you tossed in jail. Or, since Jorah is a part of the ASOIAF series, he’ll likely end up dead for it.

Death by dragon.

Drogon (and/or Viserion and/or Rhaegal): “Stay away from my mom, nerd.” *barbeques*

….Something like that…

★彡 Oh, yeah. I found out today that some commenter complained to Neil Gaiman that GRRM won’t write his book faster, and Neil Gaiman told that commenter that GRRM isn’t his bitch. Yes, Mr. Gaiman. Yes. Seriously, though. If you want quality stories/art, you need to give creators all the time they need. Otherwise, you end up with trite crap that you’ll surely end up nagging about later. Which is essentially what Neil Gaiman pointed out. I just think some fans have a hard time accepting that they do not own the creator or the fandom itself. That world was created by someone else, it belongs to someone else, and the opportunity to share it is just that…an opportunity. It is not a right. Then again, commenters like that remind me of those kids who came to your house and threw a tantrum because they couldn’t control your toys. Brats. They’re just brats.

☆彡 As much as I hate throwing my drawings away, I really have nowhere else to put them. I know that the greatest benefit of digital drawings is not having to deal with that crap. However, I love traditional drawing. It’s like…comparing reading a physical book to reading it on kindle or something. There is nothing wrong with kindle. I am just the type of person who likes to use every sense possible when it comes to my hobbies. I absolutely love to feel different tools and blend with my fingers and smell certain art supplies (the ones that give off pleasant smells anyway). I don’t hate making digital art at all. It just feels…incomplete. That’s the same reason why I prefer physical books over digital ones. They do take up a lot of room, and thank everything good in this world that I am living with someone who doesn’t mind that, but books are something I need to feel. The smell, the texture of the cover, the page-flipping sound–those things can’t really be replicated with digital versions. Anyway, I am just “old school” when it comes to things like drawing and reading. Maybe even video games. The idea of playing games without controllers bothers me a little. Don’t get me wrong. I enjoy things like kinect for certain games, but all games being motion and/or voice controlled? Nah, son.

★彡 You ever had a meal so delicious that you envied the chef because (s)he can make it every night without paying $8 for one plate? Yeah, that’s how I feel every time I have Japanese food. I could easily grab a Japanese cookbook, but I don’t know if I’ll like the foods made by the chefs who write them. Risky, risky. Despite this, though, I still want Christine Ha’s cookbook. I am confident that her food will be delicious AND I’m incredibly curious. *sigh* Food is great. Food will be the end of me. Actually…that’s not a bad end. I can just eat until I fall into a food coma, sleep, and die.

☆彡 VERONICA MARS MOVIE IS REALLY HAPPENING. NOTHING ELSE TO SAY.

Yes…I have volumes.

With that said, I am bringing an extra set of headphones with me this week because it is “royal baby” week, and the only thing worse than listening to pointless chatter is listening to everyone chatting about the same pointless topic.

Later.

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