YISA 003: Breakable, Unbreakable; Shakeable, Unshakeable.

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  • If there is one thing I always worry about in life it is money. A lot of that has to do with the environment that I grew up in, but the rest of it is just living in a capitalist society where we don’t even show compassion for our sick unless they have money. Some call me a bleeding heart liberal/socialist. I just call that having a soul. Seriously, how do these people worship someone like Jesus and have absolutely no empathy whatsoever towards the sick or poor? This got political fast. Whoops. Then again, not being political in this current society… it is like not sweating when it’s hot. It’s just a reaction to the things that are always in my face. I am working on barriers. Like, what is the real world equivalent of deodorant in that metaphor? Avoiding all human interaction? Never watching TV or going on social media? Ugh. I am so off the point that I might as well move the point to next bullet. LMAO
  • Once the worry about money goes away, I can’t really say that I give a shit about any job. My loyalty is to money when it comes to careers. I sure as fuck don’t wake up at stupid hours in the morning to drive through stupid traffic and deal with stupid coworkers because it’s fun. Once money is out of the equation, workplaces can burn to the ground for all I care. I think once I realize that then I lose all attachment and I feel better about things. My priority is always the survival of my loved ones and myself. Everything is just needless bullshit. I am young. The world is my oyster. Opportunities are abundant if you look for them.
  • Anyway, I am on the hunt for a new job. That is the gist of it. I am tired of working in this biased environment where if you are not a middle-aged yuppie with children then you don’t get the same privileges as everyone else. It makes sense that I should have the same responsibilities as my peers, but it doesn’t make sense that I should receive the same privileges as them. Does that make any sense? The reward for working at a company for a long time is your paycheck. You do not get to isolate and make examples of younger, newer people because you have your prejudices. I am just tired of it. I am tired of being talked down to like a child. I am tired for accepting punishment for mistakes while watching my older coworkers get free passes to do anything they want. Changing my shift by 30 minutes is considered a special privilege. Meanwhile, my coworkers can come in two hours later than the standard start of a shift and leave hours earlier than the end of a standard shift, and this is fine. I have no right to request the same flexibility because I do not have the burdens of old age and children. Yes, by all means, punish me for having a miscarriage and not jumping on that flaming shit of a boat again. While you’re at it, punish me again because I was still in diapers when you started working for this company. That sounds completely fair.
  • … I did enough ranting with Mark. I think I had tears of frustration for like five minutes before Mark set me straight and reminded me there are some things worth crying for and this job is not it. I need to do more than find a better, fairer opportunity. I need to go back to school. That is my one goal: go back to school. Do something more with the brains that I have then have others pat me on the head for being “a smart girl”. And, damn it, if you are in the same boat then do something better for yourself too. I have too many friends who are brilliant as hell but they accept shitty treatment because they are afraid of taking the risk. I weep for them because I know exactly why they sell themselves short. I am glad that Tiffa encouraged me to consider going back to school. It really lit a fire in me that this shit job has just been dousing in gasoline unintentionally. I suppose I should say thank you? …No. I’ll pass.
  • I dread being the type of person who talks incessantly about their work problems so let’s just end it here. I am breaking my own rule after all. Once I step foot into my apartment I never talk about work. Leave all of that bullshit at the door, right?
  • Uh… What else is on my mind?
  • I AM A WRITING MACHINE.
  • I will have four days off come labor day weekend, so I want to write like crazy.
  • Oh, right. I could not begin my Witcher 3 replay because my disc is damaged (WHY?). So now I have to download the GOTY edition which is pretty sweet as far as deals go, but it will not read my old files because my copy and the GOTY copy are considered two completely different games. So… yeah… no new game + for me. :’)
  • I might move on to my Dragon Age: Inquisition replay. I abandoned it last year, but now that I have the complete edition with all of the DLCs and special items I want to get back into it immediately. I was going to restart as a human warrior but… Knight Enchanter. I have to be a Knight Enchanter aka Dragon Slayer. LOL. I’ll stick to the elf mage that I made for now.
  • Um… I don’t know what to say about these Final Fantasy XV related updated. The pocket edition of FFXV looks pointless. The PC version of FFXV is not pointless but it is irrelevant to a non-PC gamer like me. The Assassin’s Creed DLC-thing is… okay? I mean, I love Final Fantasy and I love Assassin’s Creed… but seeing them together is kind of confusing. LOL. Noct looked really cool in his assassin gear though, and I like the idea of being an assassin in Lestallum while the rest of the chocobros are just hanging out somewhere. At least it’s not like the Chocobo Festival where Noct is completely alone, you know? Plus, Iggy and Prompto looked so adorable in their assassin gear. Gladio, on the other hand, is just… Gladio. He’s so brawny and muscular that he just looks grossly attractive in everything he wears. Yeah, yeah, I know. Gladio is hot, water is wet, bears shit in woods, etc. Anyway, I’ll play it. No one asked for this (LOL) but I’ll play it. I am a bit annoyed that Square made FFXV fans submit this survey asking what they wanted–and I believe the results were “MOAR ARDYN”–and didn’t make any content based on the options, but at least they’re not pulling a Bioware. Fucking livid that there are no DLCs coming for Mass Effect: Andromeda at all but multiplayer garbage. Then again, everyone was so vocal about their hatred for this game that I am not surprised. I did not hate it or love it. I was looking forward to Bioware pulling a Square and dropping all types of new content in response to their fans being rightfully pissed about an incomplete product being sold to them at the price of a new product. *sigh* When did the gaming world become this dramatic? I remember when games showed up finished, DLCs came in the form of sequels that were full games, and no one was having a complete meltdown over bad games like they do now. Even No Man’s Sky, which was comically insulting to the gamers that waited for it, received so much vitriol that its subreddit had to be shut down (temporarily?). It’s that bad now. -_-
  • Last episode of Game of Thrones on Sunday? SHIIIIIT. This season feels so incredibly, incredibly, incredibly rushed, but it’s kind of like ice cream in the summer. Even though most of it melts away before you can enjoy it, the ice cream itself is still delicious. All of these battles are delicious. Dany x Jon are delicious (I am disturbed how much this series made me passive to incest D:). Tormund’s growing infatuation with Brienne is delicious. I can still enjoy it as it is.

 

I think that is it. I am thinking about getting a premium WordPress account so that I can really enjoy this blog more than I already do. Just ranting about dumb shit… it feels so good. LOL. But as good as it feels I really need to start thinking about making a blog just for my art and stories. I’m on it. >>

Good vibrations~~~ Fight the power~~~ All that good shit~~~

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