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    Hello! My name is Kerrian. I am a 30-year-old New York native who currently lives in Georgia with my 32-year old Illinois native husband Mark. And our 8-year-old blue tabby furbaby Link. And, if all goes well, a baby girl in Summer 2018. That’s pretty much our little family. ^_^

    When I’m not doing family stuff, I’m usually absorbed in one hobby or another. My hobbies include, but are not limited to, drawing, writing stories, playing video games, playing tabletop RPGs, reading regular novels and graphic novels, watching anime, cooking, decorating and organizing everything, learning new facts,  and finding new music, sci-fi, or fantasy creations to obsess over.

    Overall, I’m just trying to live life to the fullest like everyone else. I’m sending good vibrations to everyone! I want us all to win, so keep fighting! Take care!


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077: Pleasure Is All Mine

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[ AJ’s reaction to meeting Lita when she was a kid. Q__Q ]

★彡 Every time I progress in a game, a new game winds up on my lap. HOW. I’m not complaining. Whether a game is free or 50+% off, it is still a good deal at the end of the day. Right now, this is my current playlist:

  • The Witcher 2 – Almost done
  • Magic: The Gathering – Duel of the Planeswalkers – It’s free with an XBox Gold membership right now, and it is great.
  • Assassin’s Creed 2 – …Was also free, but like two months ago.  Haven’t really touched it since.
  • Scott Pilgrim vs The World – My nephew managed to beat it all the way to the final boss…then it froze on him. I felt so bad for him because no child should have to live the agony of a game locking up. Still, he got a lot farther than I ever did. 😛
  • Pokemon Black 2 – I just got past the first gym leader, so there is still a long way to go.

Of course, I have other games to worry about, but they’re not really on my radar right now. I would like to perfect NieR some time this weekend since that’s probably the only game I am capable of perfecting in one weekend. Everything else will take a while.

☆彡 Every person has a different level of comfort with sexuality, and there is nothing wrong with any of those variations. How much or how little a person wears does not have anything to do with their level of self-confidence. Fashion is a personal choice. It is not a president. You don’t get to vote on it. I don’t know why this is so difficult to understand.

★彡 NaNoWriMo is right around the corner. I have been writing like crazy for Mythos, but I still have no intention of submitting that story to anything or anyone. Not even my dA. So, I’ll have to start from scratch. Right now I am playing with the idea of a huntress/detective, and have this fantasy mystery thing. I’ll see how it goes.

☆彡 I wish I had the ability to shut off certain senses. For example, if I don’t want to listen to something I can just turn my ears off, or if I don’t want to smell something I can just shut off my nose. That would be awesome. Let’s get on top of that, science.

★彡 “WWE is not real,” you say after I express the slightest emotion towards it. After smiling smugly, you turn on your favorite fictional TV show and display IRL reactions to it.

(Seriously, people who say things like: “[Obviously fake thing] is not real” make me want to punch them in the throat. First off all, no shit, Sherlock. Secondly, just because something isn’t real doesn’t mean you can’t react to it. If you think everyone should only react to real things then turn off your TV, put down your game controller, close your books, and just stare at people all day.)

☆彡  Speaking of WWE, I miss my past athleticism. I miss climbing, jumping, running, cartwheeling, backflipping, walking on my hands, etc. It kind of sucks now that I get exhausted from the simplest things. I am still fighting hard to get to that point. I don’t sit around keeping count of how many times I slip up. What’s the point? Even the best athletes mention how often they lose compared to how often they win. They end up winning because they never give up. I am the same way. I may not have much to show for it right now, but I am proud of myself for getting up every morning and saying: “Let’s go!” even if the last day sucked immensely. I am never giving up on being strong again. Until I can return to doing 50 push-ups without breaking a sweat, my work is never done. That is my mentality.

★彡 Mark and I got into a show called Whodunnit, and it’s really interesting. The core of it is your run-of-the-mill elimination-based reality show, but it involves solving murder mysteries. Long explanation short, there are 13 guests and one of them is a killer. Every week, the killer murders a guest in the house, and the other guests must gather clues to find out how the murder happened. The two people with the crappiest theories on how the murder occurred end up “scared” rather than “spared”, and one of them ends up being murdered. Sometimes multiple murders happen. Blah blah blah, the guests must solve that murder, etcetera, etcetera. To be honest, the season finale was pretty anticlimactic, but the build up itself was very good. We were hooked. We’re crossing our fingers for a Season 2. The show really reminds me of Dangan Ronpa with adults in a mansion rather than kids in a school, so I am definitely interested in more.

☆彡 I feel like I’m the only person who hates having their hair touched. I don’t even like salons because the thought of someone touching my hair for hours at a time really bothers me. Then again, I don’t like being touched anywhere so…that makes sense.

★彡 My first reaction to Ben Affleck being announced as Batman was “let’s see how this goes”, and I haven’t budged since then. I was not happy with his performance as Daredevil (I LOVE DAREDEVIL AND HIS MOVIE WAS NOT EVEN RIGHT), but that could be blamed on the writer and/or director. So, I repeat, let’s see how this goes. Honestly, the first time I heard that Heath Ledger would play The Joker I got really nervous. I pretty much stayed nervous until I saw The Dark Knight and came to the conclusion that he did the best rendition of The Joker. Yes, I even liked him more than Jack Nicholson. I digress. The same may happen with Ben Affleck. It is not a physical thing at all. Ben Affleck, like Bruce Wayne, is dark-haired and handsome. It really isn’t that hard to find someone who looks like Bruce. What matters is the acting. Ben Affleck is a great actor outside of his one superhero role (that I know of), so…it could have just been bad luck. Time will tell. I’m not losing hope, and I’m definitely not signing any petitions to boot him from the film. Those are just sad.

☆彡 There are some foods that sound delicious in theory but taste horrible in actuality. “Stuffed” foods are a major one for me. Eating stuffed foods comes with a 50% chance of me enjoying it and a 50% chance of me throwing up all over the place. Risky, risky.

★彡 Requiem For a Dream made me go from avoiding drugs to wanting to curl into a ball the moment drugs are mentioned.

☆彡 I found a program for making visual novels, and I’m pretty sure I’m going to use it to make inappropriate dating sims.


There isn’t much else to add. Currently, all of my free time is spent on a steady Hulu, Netflix, writing, drawing, and video game rotation. So, that’s all I’m really up to. Fun, fun, fun.

That’s about it. >_>

A Girl Can Dream.

tumblr_m7c2oocBO11rn5a30o1_500I hope when I die I am considered worthy by a group of mystical cats who revive me and turn me into a leather-clad whip-wielding acrobat who pretty much has unrestricted access to all the pretty things she wants and can occasionally play with an adorable loner dressed as an oversized bat.

That isn’t asking too much, is it?

047: Dawn Breaks Like A Bull Through The Hall



☆彡 Tomorrow, I see Silent Hill: Revelations and The Man With The Iron Fists. Yet another thing to be excited about. 😀

★彡 Somehow, one sick day turned into a four-day weekend. I’m not happy about that at all. Thursday was understandable. I had a 100 degree fever, back-to-back migraines, and nausea so bad that I don’t know how in the world I didn’t throw up that day. Friday though…Okay, I’ll admit, I wasn’t 100%. I still had a fever, but it was only 99. I was fine enough to do work. I resent being sent home to just sit in bed, and wallow over the money I’m not making. I’m not angry at my boss at all. She was only looking out for me and everyone else (which is what I like about her) but I’m just…frustrated. Christmas is right around the corner. I can’t afford to have  two days off like that. I don’t know what I’m rambling about. I should be grateful. I did have a great day with Mark since he was off on Friday. Hell, he’s even going to be off on Sunday too. So, I can smile about that, right? 🙂

☆彡 Thanks to the two days off mentioned, I finally finished Deep Space Nine. The last moment of the show where Jake is watching the wormhole with Kira beside him–UGH RIGHT IN THE FEELS. I’ve already moved on to Voyager, and I must say that I really like Captain Kathryn Janeway. Actually, there isn’t a ST captain that I don’t adore. They’re all so wonderful. ❤

★彡 Getting this Dark Knight trilogy was a flawless choice. I’ve been watching the movies on loop since I got them. It’s so much better watching the entire thing from start to finish in one sitting. It leaves the details nice and crisp.

☆彡 I thought my obsession with Morning Glory stationery ended in my adolescence. It didn’t.

★彡 Netflix has all these Disney movies now thanks to a deal they made. I’m starting with The Fox and The Hound (which I’ve never seen) before I move on to The Aristocats (never finished it, but saw most of it), Alice in Wonderland, and then Pocahontas. The Nightmare Before Christmas is another possibility too. It’s all going to be very nostalgic indeed.

☆彡 If everyone has a purpose in life, I believe mine is storytelling. Whether it’s drawing or writing stories, I enjoy telling them. There is a feeling I can’t quite explain when I create a story, and someone tells me: “What happens next? Please work on it! I need to know the rest!” It’s not really pride. It’s…I don’t know. The closest feeling to it is when someone gives you an important task to complete, and you not only complete it, you go beyond their expectations. It’s that happiness with yourself and your abilities. There really is nothing like it.

★彡 I don’t have a New Year’s resolution list to share this year. Instead, I have a “Shit You Should Have Done Like Five Years Ago and It’s Really Pathetic That It’s Taking This Long” list. I don’t feel like posting it.

☆彡 Random Conversation:

Mark: “Doesn’t my character look like Geralt?”

Me: “Yes. Now I want to touch his butt.”

Mark: “What?”

Me: “What?”

(On a serious note, Geralt has a nice butt and everything else. Permission to post Geralt? For me? Why, you shouldn’t have! )


★彡 Tina Turner singing “Goldeneye”. Perfection.

*sigh* Six hours away from Mark getting home, enjoying dinner, and watching Sword Art Online. I’m so impatient right now. -__-

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Gettin’ real tired of your bullshit.

☆彡 Shout out to the people I want to punch in the neck today. A weekend isn’t a weekend unless I think about how grateful I am to not have to acknowledge your existences for the next two days.

☆彡 Writing is such a pleasant yet time-consuming hobby. I’ve been half-asleep this entire week because, somehow, writing sessions that start at 9 p.m. always end at 3 a.m. The worst part about that is that it feels like I’ve only been writing for an hour. I think to myself: “Finally got # pages done! I wonder how much I can knock out in one more hour– shit! It’s been six hours? FUCK.” Even then, I don’t know to end a writing session properly. So I write until it “feels right”, and then I go to bed full of regret.

☆彡 I’m so glad that No Doubt is back. I will be getting that new CD first day. First. Day. Best believe. No Doubt haters need to check their privilege, and get in line and settle down.

☆彡 I would love to get into power lifting. It’s something that I love watching, so what’s really stopping me from doing it? …Besides not having a gym membership, of course.

☆彡 I feel like I am the only person on the planet who does not despise Snooki. I don’t adore her or anything like that, but I don’t get why she deserves mistreatment in the eyes of so many.

☆彡 Random pet peeve: celebrity gossip on the news. What the fuck is this? How can you go from talking about thunderstorms, traffic, and deaths, and start talking about Kristen Stewart’s “scandal”. This is exactly why I stopped caring about TV. The media is getting really ridiculous right now. The message I get when I watch TV is: “You’re not good enough and everything is scary, but you what helps? Exploiting the personal lives of famous people. Don’t you feel better about your life now?” Seeing how I’m not a schadenfreude, the answer for me is a definite no. It does not help at all. Oh well. DVDs and Netflix it is.

☆彡 Popular songs I am so fucking tired of hearing: “We Are Young”, “Somebody That I Used To Know”, “Call Me Maybe”, “What Makes You Beautiful”, “Scream”, “Payphone”, “Titanium”, “Glad You Came”, “Stronger (What Doesn’t Kill You)”, “One Thing”, and “Lights”. I think that’s it.

☆彡 Popular songs that I hear all the time yet I don’t mind at all: “Settle Down”, “Dark Side”, “Wide Awake”, “Where Have You Been”, “Give Your Heart A Break”, “I Won’t Give Up”, “E.T.”, and anything by Lady Gaga–she’s catchy as hell. 😐

☆彡 Things I can’t wait to do this weekend: wash my hair, flea bomb this apartment…again, get a new Triforce song, try out the electric skillet I got for my birthday, and see The Dark Knight Rises on Sunday.

I hope all of those things go well, and will make up for the bullshit day I had today. I’m stressed as fuck. Going to shower and work on my story. Before I go, I’m going to post “The Sound of Winter” lyrics because I really love this song. And it reminds me of Mark…and I miss him. 😦

It’s cheesy. I know. But I need cheesy right now. 😛

Enjoy your weekend, dears.

Bush – The Sound of Winter Lyrics

Mind strong, body strong
Try to find equilibrium
Head straight, screwed on
Been screwed up for too long

I don’t want to lean on the waves
I watch the storm evaporate
I think of you in starry skies
I keep you so alive

Let’s walk through the fire together
Disappear in the golden sands

It’s all in your face
I see you break
It’s like the sound of winter
The bleeding love, the silent escape
You’ve got to hang on to yourself
It’s like the sound of winter

Medusa smiles, Judas lips
Open arms and finger tips
Love bites and recompense
I’ll be with you until the end

Let’s walk through the fire together
Disappear in the golden sands

It’s all in your face
I see you break
It’s like the sound of winter
The bleeding love, the silent escape
You’ve got to hang on to yourself

It’s all in your face
I see you break
It’s like the sound of winter
The bleeding love, the silent escape
You’ve got to hang on to yourself

It’s like the sound of winter

Hang on to yourself
Hang on to yourself

It’s like the sound of winter
It’s all in your face
I see you break
It’s like the sound of winter
The bleeding love, the silent escape
You’ve got to hang on to yourself
It’s like the sound of winter
It’s like the sound of winter

Hang on to yourself
Hang on to yourself

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[ Warning: I am very energetic. Work with me here. >_> ]

☆彡 This broken 360 thing really screwed my plans for Mark’s birthday gifts. I was going to buy him Mass Effect 2, Mass Effect 3, a year of XBox Live, and all the ME-related DLCs. Now I can’t. *flips desk* I am still struggling on what to get him, so I’m just going to bring him out and make him pick whatever he wants. For now, though, he wants to nap. So, I’ll let him nap. >_<

☆彡 Guys. Sonic X. Fuck. I am addicted. I swear I get hooked on the most random shows. Oh well. I don’t mind being hooked on Sonic. I was a colossal Sonic stan as a kid, and then I moved on to random anime shows and RPGs as I grew older. So, it’s almost nostalgic to be hooked on something Sonic-related again. Plus Knuckles. Knuckles. He is a bad ass motherfucker.

☆彡 I haven’t met an introvert yet who didn’t remind me of a cat. It’s amazing.

☆彡 I really need a Gokaiger boxset to come out promptly. That show is so amazing. I want to watch it everyday. I also need the movies. All of them. Every day. All. Of. Them. At the same time. Every. Single. Day.

☆彡 Well, I found out why I have been going through chronic stomach aches, fatigue, and other generally unpleasant biological shit. Parasites. Yep. A friend of mine actually posted an article about parasites online, but my first reaction was: “No, I don’t have parasites. No way.” But now it’s confirmed. Doctor said it. I even saw it. Not cool at all, by the way. So, yeah. I’m officially the unluckiest person this side of the hemisphere. LOL!

☆彡 The moment someone tells me to swear to do something, I want to yell: “SWEAR TO ME!” Batman has ruined my life. I’m still going to see The Dark Knight Rises though. And The Avengers. And Skyfall. And Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Hunter. And Snow White and the Huntsman. And the GI Joe sequel. And Prometheus. And…you know what? There are A LOT of movies I want to see this year. 2012 may not suck so much after all. Hmmmmmmm~ *rubs chin*

☆彡 Jump roping is extremely fun as long as you have a really tight bra on. Breasts were not made to bounce around for long periods of time. ;___;

☆彡 I love, love, love, love, love watching the parade from Ghost in the Shell 2: Innocence. I swear my heart races like crazy when I watch it. The chanting, the imagery, the colors. So beautiful o.o. You know, I used to work at the lawn and garden department of Sears and right across from that department is the electronics department. Well, they would randomly show these previews of different movies to demonstrate how powerful the TVs were, and I kept seeing the GITS2 parade but I didn’t know it was from GITS2. I just knew it was enthralling and I could not function when it was on. I remember a customer asking me a bunch of questions and then I heard the chanting and I said: “Hold on one second, sir. Let me check on that for you.” I ran all the way to the electronics department, hid behind the counter, and watched the TV. Then I ran back and was like: “Okay. Here is the information you need.” Cannot be tamed.

☆彡 I have a serious book problem. You guys don’t understand. I have a pile of 20-something books waiting to be read, and I have 20-something more on my Amazon wishlist. Mark and I were discussing things to donate and he said: “How about we donate some books.”

How about we donate some books.

How about we donate some books.

How about we donate some books.

…During times like these I have to sing “Reasons” by Earth, Wind, and Fire to remind myself why we’re married. Because he almost died. To this day he can’t understand why I’ll randomly sing: “REASOOOOOONS” when he says certain things. He’ll appreciate it someday. 🙂

☆彡 My plans for the rest of the weekend: Start on that art challenge, finish up some FSU documents, finish ‘Catching Fire’, watch more Korean dramas and Sonic X, organize dishes, organize living room, start on this Barre fitness thing I was introduced to, and start grocery shopping for the things I can actually eat. Yep. Productive weekend. By the way, I’m not going to believe anything anyone tells me tomorrow, so I’m sorry if you try to tell me real things tomorrow and I laugh at you. We’ll try to have that conversation again on Monday when it’s not April Fools’ Day. 😐

That’s it! Later! ♥

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