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    Hello! My name is Kerrian. I am a 30-year-old New York native who currently lives in Georgia with my 32-year old Illinois native husband Mark. And our 8-year-old blue tabby furbaby Link. And, if all goes well, a baby girl in Summer 2018. That’s pretty much our little family. ^_^

    When I’m not doing family stuff, I’m usually absorbed in one hobby or another. My hobbies include, but are not limited to, drawing, writing stories, playing video games, playing tabletop RPGs, reading regular novels and graphic novels, watching anime, cooking, decorating and organizing everything, learning new facts,  and finding new music, sci-fi, or fantasy creations to obsess over.

    Overall, I’m just trying to live life to the fullest like everyone else. I’m sending good vibrations to everyone! I want us all to win, so keep fighting! Take care!


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☆彡 Zelda gifs! Fuck yes!

☆彡 I actually feel like setting people on fire today, but I’m trying to be as laid back as possible.  🙂

☆彡 Kaine will always be my spirit animal. I miss her. I miss Nier too…and Emil…I need my XBox 360 back! ;__;

☆彡 Mark and I watched The Cabin in the Woods. It was great. It just screamed Joss Whedon. Which is not a bad thing at all. I like Joss Whedon’s writing style. I can’t wait to see what he does with The Avengers. Actually, I can’t wait to see it with Mark, Tiffany, Daniel, The not-the-other Daniel Daniel (LOL), and Brandon/Peaches. Come on, May! Get here faster! >_<

☆彡 Speaking of writing, I’ve been writing a lot lately. I’ve been drawing a lot too…but it’s pretty much all Mythos. So, nothing exciting. I’m going to meticulously modify and perfect that project until the end of time.

☆彡 The actress who plays Eun-Chan in The Coffee Prince is amazing. One second she looks like an adorable boy, and the next second she looks an adorable girl. I still can’t believe she’s not a boy…yet I can believe that she’s a girl because she has very feminine features. Mind boggling! She really is perfect for the role. Either way, coming to the end of the series. This is around the time where you think “Aw, this couple is finally together and they’re so cute,” and then someone gets hit by a car or something and destroys your soul. Fuck these shows, man. 😦

☆彡 Watching all these Korean dramas makes me so hungry sometimes. They always have these kimchi and bibimbap dishes! I need to go to Assi tomorrow!  ;___;

☆彡 Dear Halo Haters,

Calling Halo ‘Galo/Gaylo’ never gets old. “


☆彡Even though I’m clumsy as hell and I shouldn’t be near a hotpot ever again, I love hotpots. I regret nothing. *dramatic pose*

☆彡 …Puella Magi Madoka Magica is a messed up anime. It catches you off guard because (a)it’s a magical girl series…and you know how those tend to be, and (b)the art style is cutesy and colorful. I actually had a nightmare about what happened to Sayaka and Kyoko. It wasn’t scary, but it disturbed me so much that I must have been thinking too much about it. Anyway…yeah. That anime is like…Persona messed up. :/

☆彡 Speaking of things that disturb me, I’m going to reveal one of my random fears…tall pale guys with tall hats. Before you ask, the answer is yes. Abraham Lincoln terrifies me. I mean, I like the guy. He was an awesome president, but seeing his statues and reenactments creep me out. Not Abraham Lincoln Vampire Hunter though. He didn’t look that scary in the trailers.  I’m also scared of those fourth of July parades where they have Uncle Sam on stilts. Shit like that. I just don’t like lofty pale guys with tall hats on. I don’t know why. It’s the stupidest thing ever, but I am permanent terrified of it.

I don’t know what else to say. Going to start up the hotpot. Looks like a ramen and eggs night! *victory fanfare*

That’s it.

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I’m a bit cranky today. Sorry.

☆彡 Rellik was my brother’s dog, and he passed away on the 10th. He was like family. I really wanted to see him again someday. Please R.I.P. Relly. 😦

☆彡 The luckiest day I had all year fell on a Friday the 13th. Seriously, I dodged a metaphorical bullet, I got the day off from work because our system went down, and I got to spend most of the day with my best friend because of it. It was even topped with fireworks. I don’t get my life. Nothing goes right when it should, but it goes amazingly when it shouldn’t. Sense. My life makes none. LOL

☆彡 Most social nuances go over my head. I don’t understand things like timing, loopholes, hidden meanings, and unspoken rules. I don’t understand things like: ‘If someone poses in a certain way then they want a hug,” or “If someone says one thing then they mean the opposite.” I work best when I am approached upfront with plain facts and honest statements. I’m not interested in mind games. Not with people anyway. I prefer my puzzles to be inanimate. -_-

☆彡 Most stereotypes annoy me. People are far too complex to be lumped into a category based on their appearance. It just…fucking boggles my mind that such a flawed method of analyzing people is actually okay with some people.

☆彡 I’m watching this new Korean drama called The Coffee Prince. It’s pretty great, but the first episode had no subtitles…so I’m not really sure how everything began. LOL. I’ll just have to wing it.

☆彡 I am realizing more and more each day that living in an apartment is a crappy living arrangement.

☆彡 I need a vacation. Big time. For some reason, I am thinking about the times when my aunt brought me and my sisters apple picking in New York. I loved it. I’d love to do that again. Research time! Knowing Georgia, I’ll probably end up picking peaches…but I’m okay with that. Peach salad, peach marmalade, peach pie, peaches with cream, peach everything. Fufufu~ I’ll find a way. >:3

☆彡 Everyone is a hypocrite. The only way to avoid being a hypocrite is to never change, never learn, never explore, and never question your own boundaries. You would have to be the same exact person for years/decades of your life to avoid contradicting yourself. So, basically, you’re either a hypocrite at some point in your life, or you’re in a coma.

☆彡 I miss drawing mangas. I don’t know why I stopped. Maybe I was getting a bit frustrated with my habit of changing stories mid-creation. It was annoying how I made like three books worth of mangas and then changed the entire plot one day. I don’t know…maybe I should make the most simple plot on the planet, stick with it, and make a manga series for it. Yeah, that would be a good idea! I’ll think of something later.

☆彡 Prison Break has become addictive. I’m already on season three…although I don’t like the third season that much. The first two seasons were brilliant though. It’s funny. My karate teacher told me to watch it because I was just like the TV show’s main character (Michael Scofield), and my first reaction was “…Eh’. But he’s right. We do have a lot in common, especially our having low latent inhibition. He’s a very interesting character in a very interesting show. I hate that it is going to end soon.

That’s about it.

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☆彡 Before I watched My Girlfriend Is A Gumiho I kept hearing about how cute the main actor is (Lee Seung Gi), but I didn’t really see it. Now I’m seeing him in other Korean dramas…and he does look pretty cute. Bah! Now I feel like Ami from Sailor Moon because most of the time I’m really quiet and I always have my head in some type of book, but every once in a while I’ll develop questionable interests like unreasonably attractive idols and borderline perverted things. Yeah…….what’s that? You want some Lee Seung Gi pictures? Okay. 😀

…I’m still calling him Dae Woong though. I keep calling him Dae Woong the same way I keep calling Shin Minh Ah ‘Jade’ because that was her name in the American version of Volcano High. I do the same things with voice actors: “Is that Nier? Is that The Major? Is that Spike?” LOL! I have no intention of going by their real names anymore.

☆彡 As much as I love other geeks and nerds, the growing elitism in that social circle is annoying as fuck. Seriously, are we STILL complaining about pseudogeeks/pseudonerds? People being fake is just as timeless as people putting on a show to get attention. The pope is catholic, bears shit in woods, water is wet, etc. Just let it go. I don’t understand why any self-proclaimed geek/nerd would bother to separate from their obsessions to bash poseurs anyway. Like…when did geeks and nerds become the bullies? The world must really be ending! LOL. Anyway, that is my opinion on that Forbes article and the foolishness about “wannabes”. If someone is being fake to get attention then stop giving him/her attention. And if he/she gets attention or cash or grass or gas or ass from someone else, who cares? You didn’t fall for their act. Someone else did. Why are you getting offended? It’s not like poseurs are known to settle anyway. The moment something more popular comes along, they will pack up and move away. So relax. Give it time. Geeks/nerds will go from ‘chic’ to the pitiful underbelly of society once more. XD

☆彡 This is the best reaction to everything:

What are you doing?

What’s that?

What does that even mean?

Why aren’t you saying anything?

You’re such a bitch.

Ugh. Whatever.

And then I’ll just look at everything I have to do and be like:

And watch TV:

And play some games:

Reading a book:

Eat some delicious ramen:

Watch a movie:

The fuck kind of ending was that?

Whatever. Cat is harassing me. I guess he’s hungry.

What time is it? 3 am? I ain’t even tired.

I’ll sleep when I’m dead.

*turns on anime*

Then I’ll end up tired as fuck the next day but whatever I’ll probably do that shit again:

☆彡 I want to see The Hunger Games, but I want to finish the book first. I’m almost done! Got through 200 pages in two days. It’s that good! My favorite thing to do is read a book, imagine how everything looks, and then compare it to the movie interpretation. Sometimes I’ll get lucky and my imagination will match up with the movie. It doesn’t happen often though. The only movie that was spot on with my imagination was the first Harry Potter. That’s about it. I don’t mind. I find different interpretations to be interesting.

☆彡 Switching my major from game design to game art. Game art is more art and less programming. Art is my “thing”, you know? So it only makes sense. Besides, Mark is the programmer in our house. He does the codes and I do the visuals. If all goes well, I’ll be able to start in May. I’m really excited. I’m supposed to get a Macbook, Wacom Tablet, Photoshop, Maya, Microsoft Suite, and a bunch of other shit as a part of my school supplies. MADNESS. You can bet your ass that the moment I improve my skills I am going to start taking commissions on dA. The tuition is no joke. I need to freelance and sell art as much as possible. After I get my degree, I’m going to start applying to a shitload of gaming companies. They’re all looking for visual artists, to be honest, so I’m glad I made this major change before it was too late. I’m excited! It’s kind of mind-boggling to think that I may come out of this with the skill level of my favorite artists. Hopefully. Practice makes perfect.

☆彡 I found this really fun art challenge and I’m going to start on it. I know, I know, I always say that but I’m going to say it again.

I have tons of project ideas that I’d like to post to. Those will end up on my “official” blog…you know, the one that doesn’t involve my crazy thoughts and ramblings. That one. Notice how empty it is. It’s like comparing my mind to my productivity. Story of my life. Anyway, I need to draw. And finish THG. Mark said he wants to see it for his birthday, so I need to finish within the next three days.

And Happy Birthday, Mark! >_<

Sorry that I can’t get you the thing you deserve to get because our ecks bawks betrayed us. XD

*sigh* That’s about it. March sucked…much like January and February (LOL), so give me a break, April! In the words of Batiatus from Spartacus: “WHEN WILL THE GODS REMOVE COCK FROM ASS?!” (Spartacus is such a vulgar show. Like…it should be rated NC-99. Still watching. Lucy Lawless is in it. Are you kidding? Watching forever. :D)

Later. ♥

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☆彡 So…I took the I-Bet-I-Won’t-Cry-During-A-Korean-Drama challenge, and failed. My Girlfriend is a Gumiho caught me off guard. UGLY FACE CRYING LIKE A G.

☆彡 My 360 is broken! Seriously, look at this bullshit:

My life is over! *FALLS DOWN IN A SLOW CIRCLE AND DIES* Seriously, Mark and I got a good laugh about it because we thought Jensen was getting hacked in Deus Ex: Human Revolution. Then the system gave us an error screen and we started joking that Jensen caught a digital STD from an augmented hooker. Don’t ask. Either way, packing up the ecks bawks for repairs. I probably won’t be able to play it for…eh…I’m going to say three months. So, it’s just going to be my Wii and my PS2 for now. Bah. Just as I was progressing in Dark Souls too!


…Okay, I’m done. LMAO. This has been a fangirly week for me. Sorry. Mark is joking that I’m becoming a human girl as if I was some type of alien lifeform before. LOL! Speaking of Mark, we’re both pretty much set on a Korra and Mako cosplay. As much as we love the Barriss and Plo Koon idea we realized that (a)Korra and Mako are much easier to cosplay, and (b)it is going to be hot as sin at every convention we plan to attend this year. So a sleeveless shirt for me and short sleeves for Mark will do us much good. I really want to go as Impa at some point as well. Mark can go as Ghirahim. Fufufu~ XDD

☆彡 It looks like I’ll be starting my game design course at the end of April. I’m pretty excited! I’m also too scared to get excited because I don’t want to get my hopes up or be disappointed. *sigh* …Why am I this way? LOL. I guess the only thing left to do is tie up some loose ends. There is no time to second guess. I am heading towards my dream. No point in looking back or fretting about risks. From here on out it’s just me keeping my chin up, being brave, and kicking ass, right?

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