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☆彡 Sword Art Online is amazing. I thought the entire series was already complete when I started it, but it turns out that it is still going.  In other words, I have to wait every week for new updates. *falls to the floor slowly*

★彡 I managed to get Mark hooked on Star Trek: Deep Space Nine. Fufufu~! With no influence from me, though, he decided that Odo was his favorite character too. It’s understandable. Odo is extremely likable  I love that “getting really tired of your bullshit” look he constantly wears. Then again, Odo is always tired of everyone’s bullshit–especially Quark. Quark is probably going to get choked out at some point in the series.

☆彡 Yes, I know about Halo 4. No, I’m not playing it. My 360 is still out of commission. It was just a matter of time, really. I got the system in 2008, and it ran without any type of issue until this year. So…it’s time for me to consider a replacement instead of constantly repairing it, having it work for a few days/weeks, and then breaking again. Of course, I will be on Halo 4 like white on rice the moment I get a new 360 though. I just need to find a way to get $400 extra dollars. Good luck with that, right? XD

★彡 Congrats to President Obama on his second term. I was legit concerned about Romney taking the White House. I don’t trust anyone who believes that certain individuals should not have rights because their belief says so. It’s like me saying: “I don’t believe in eating ice cream because my religion says so. So, I’m banning ice cream for everyone.” It’s just a dick move…and anyone who cannot understand how that is dick move has no business running a country. I don’t agree with everything Obama has done, but Romney is no remedy to Obama’s mistakes. That’s for sure.

☆彡 Nanowrimo is not going well so far. I have maybe…3,000 words so far, and I’m already thinking about deleting all of them. I already know what my issue is. I make things too complex. The moment I start a new story, I try to create new worlds and universes rather than start in the one that I live in. I did find this plot generator website, and some of the suggestions are not bad at all. There is nothing like finding a good writing prompt. In the past, one good writing prompt gave me hundreds of pages to write. I just have to stop focusing on nitpicking at every error. I just have to write freely and edit later. *sigh* Well…seven days in, 0 words–if I restart. I better get my ass in gear.

★彡 Movies I Want To See Before 2013: The Man With the Iron Fists, Silent Hill: Revelations, Skyfall, The Hobbit, Wreck-it Ralph, Cloud Atlas, Life of Pi, Django Unchained, and…I think that’s it.

☆彡 Programming is…soothing. I don’t know what it is. It’s just a never-ending puzzle for me. When things go smoothly, I feel accomplished. When they don’t, I feel challenged. I do enough programming crap on my free time to just get a degree in it. Probably make some ridiculous cash in the process. *sigh* I don’t know. The moment I start to associate my past times with money, I feel pressure. I just don’t want something I love to become another thing to be stressed about. I don’t need anyone telling me that how I approach a hobby of mine isn’t “up to their standards”. I don’t want assholes in my sanctuary in other words. But I guess it isn’t about me. I’ll just…leave that alone for now.

★彡 There is no secret to relationships. The same way there is no secret to wealth, fitness, or success. It’s all a matter of sacrifice, or giving up something good for something better. That’s the “secret”…as anticlimactic as it may be. No product in the world will replace poor self-control, and there are companies out there just waiting to drain your wallet dry until you realize that. Mind you, I speak from experience. I know how it feels to be so desperate for change that you’ll listen to anyone; however, you can’t rely on other people to handle your problems. You have to learn to work with what you have. Everything you need is already within you…as cliche and cheesy as that may sound. So…yeah. I can’t sit here and write you a manual on what Mark and I do 24/7. It’s not going to help you to imitate our lives or any other couple’s lives. The lives that couples live are unique to their own personalities and circumstances. You just have to give up the quest for a magical relationship tip. It doesn’t exist. And I’m not even charging you $16.00 a book to tell you this. Yay! *tosses confetti*

Yep…I don’t have anything else to contribute. Got to handle crap. >_>

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★彡 I wish I could update this thing on a daily basis, but I’ll just try to updates as frequently as possible.

★彡 I am starting my yearly Sailor Moon marathon…by completely skipping the other seasons, and going straight to Sailor Stars. I’m dangerous, guys. Watch out. Skipping seasons over here. On a semi-serious note, this marathon is long overdue. Sailor Moon always erases all the feels I don’t want to feel…except for the times when Usagi starts crying. The Japanese VA for Usagi makes the saddest weeping sounds ever. Then they add that sad violin version of the Sailor Stars theme, and then my heart shatters into a million pieces. Otherwise, this anime continuously purifies my soul every time I watch it. It’s true.

★彡 Then there is Berserk…which tends to do the complete opposite of purifying my soul…but not this week! The gang is finally getting close to Elfhelm! They even saw branches! Branches, son! *throws confetti around* I probably shouldn’t get too excited though. Once more, The Skull Knight’s warning to Guts that Casca may not want what he wants has popped up. It’s definitely foreshadowing…and anyone who thinks for a second that Casca will become herself again and have this big romantic reunion with Guts is immediately pimp slapped by that premonition. It’s the truth. I don’t know why we Berserk fans do this to ourselves. *sigh* Oh, well. October 28th is the next release date, and that’s something to be excited about. Anything is better than seeing ‘Until Next Time’ on the final page of a chapter. The worst feeling in the world.

★彡 Mark and I finally finished season 2 of The Walking Dead. One word: Michonne. Well, yes, there are many other words I have about this series…but mostly Michonne…and “I can’t believe I’m missing the third season”…and more things along those lines.

★彡 There is something that I am really excited about, but I am also super nervous about it. If everything does not go right on Monday, when said event will occur, I will…probably cry. There is a good chance I will cry. I will definitely, 100%, cry. As Mark said, though, I just have to do my best. As long I put my best foot forward, I have the right to be proud of myself. So, I’m going to start preparing now. Even though it’s Friday, I am going to get everything ready. Nothing will go wrong unless some force of nature works against me. I can do this! >_<

★彡 Hulu, please stop being a dick. I want to watch Serial Experiments Lain. Thanks.

★彡 I have to learn to make Moo Goo Gai Pan.

★彡 “Zelda is overrated.” — Peasants

★彡 Halloween is right around the corner. Aw yeaaaah~ Do I know what I want to be? Nope. I don’t know if I’ll even be anything this year. If I had to be something, though, it would be the Cat in the Hat. Actually, I’ve been wanting to be the Cat in the Hat for a long time. And not the disturbing sexy versions of the Cat in the Hat. Just the regular kind. That would be fun.

★彡 As much as I adore Link, he drives me crazy sometimes. He is basically a two year old that never grows up. On one hand, he can be really adorable when he’s off in his own world being curious and clumsy. On the other hand, he has so much energy that he wants to just…attack everything. And, no, you can’t tell a cat to stop. Cats will pause, but they don’t stop. Link will often pause, meow at us, and then continue. It can be tough. Taking care of anything or anyone can be tough.

★彡 As funny as these Big Bird jokes are at times, I am far from laughing at the idea of PBS being gone. It is a very valuable channel. It has raised generations of children and enlightened millions of adults. It’s the type of thing I would like to pass on to my children someday. In many ways, PBS has become a part of our society. I can’t imagine why, of all the of issues in this country, PBS is even in the top 100 things to handle for Mitt Romney. I understand you need to save money…but PBS? *sigh*

★彡 How did I become obsessed with coffee? I used to be completely nonchalant about, and would have a cup every now and again, but now I can’t imagine a day without it. Especially the coffees they sell at the Asian farmer’s markets. It’s so delicious. Fuck…

★彡RANT ALERT. I should do that more often…warn people about that shit. I digress. I am already reluctant to make new friends, but nothing makes me want to say “oh hell no” like being used as some type of token in a person’s weird friend-collecting hobby. In other words, I don’t want to be anyone’s “this is my nerd friend” or “this is my friend who can draw” or “this is my black friend from my collection of black friends”. I’m just Kerri. Take the good in me and the bad in me, or don’t take anything at all. I really don’t want to stand around trying to fit anyone’s stereotype of me. That has to be the most aggravating thing, you know? I never said that because I was shy that I was desperate for friends. I never said that because I preferred not to talk that I had nothing to do but listen to others talk. I definitely didn’t tell anyone that I was pure, innocent, or immune to emotions like anger and sadness. I don’t want to be dragged into anyone’s bullshit. I just want to have a pleasant time wherever I am. That is pretty much my rant.

★彡 I have come to see bad situations as steps rather than walls. I can never ascend this metaphorical staircase called life unless I am willing to trip on a few steps along the way. It happens. What is the point in stopping, or going back to the bottom again? Really, when I look at everything in a staircase mentality, I visualize the importance of the saying ‘keep going’. Whether you’re a logical or emotional person, the only thing that will satisfy you in life is to keep rising.  No matter what.

★彡 I haven’t done a weekly challenge in a LONG time. Wow. I should definitely fix that this weekend…especially considering the fact that I’ve yet to completely pass any challenge. Then again, I set really high goals that I know I will not be able to reach. I should do things more attainable next time — even if they seem to lack challenge at first.

…I really don’t know what else to add…because I’m lazy…and it’s the weekend.

Maybe I will add something tomorrow. For now, I’m just going to do some tumblr then some gaming and then some writing and then I’ll probably end up sleeping when the sun is coming up and hating myself. Yay~

That is it. Good night.

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 Time for an entry with shooting star ascii and shit! I am excitement-but-not-really!  Yay!

★彡 If you have no idea what is going on in that gif then you need to Mass Effect and Adventure Time moar. Or don’t. It’s cool.

★彡 Speaking of Mass Effect, I finally finished the entire series. Like many, I was not happy with the ending. I was not expecting it to end with butterflies and rainbows, but I was expecting an ending with more…effort. I don’t really know how else to put it. I just know I got the feeling of robbery that I got from watching The Matrix trilogy. It was just constant amazing-ness until the last ten minutes. Still, I sympathize with Bioware and EA as I sympathized with the Wachowski brothers. I cannot imagine what it is like to watch a humble project of yours turn into this…pop culture phenomena overnight. Suddenly, you have millions of people at your back telling you how to run your own story. It must be stressful. So, I am grateful for them adding things like supplements to better explain their reasoning for making the ending the way it is, and (hopefully) when I download that extended aftermath DLC, I will get a better understanding. Then again, it’s not so much understanding. I understand why it ended the way it did. I just don’t understand what compelled the writers to write such an ending. In other words, I want to come to the “this feels right” conclusion they must have felt when they chose to end the game that way. I…always want to understand the things that baffle or confuse me. That’s just the way I am. Nonetheless, I will never say the game was a waste of time based on a few minutes I didn’t agree with. The series is amazing. I only regret not starting it sooner, but better late than never. I can’t wait to try out some of the DLCs. In fact, when I get the time and funds, I’d like to download every single DLC, and play the game again. I cannot wait.

★彡 Moving is so frustrating, especially when it’s one of those on-a-whim types of moves. Well…no, not whim. We have to move for our own safety. I don’t need anyone to tell me twice about leaving this place. When your car gets stolen and your apartment gets broken into in a one year span, that is all the reminders you need. Then again, it’s more than just leaving. If I could just leave with no repercussions, I would have left the moment my car was taken; however, there is such a thing as a lease. Moreover, the fuckton of fees that come with moving into a new apartment. I have to pay $500-$600 first month’s rent for a one bedroom. Then pay $200 in administrative fees. Then pay $300 deposit for Link. Then pay $100-$600 for a security deposit based on credit. Then…wow…whatever other fees they want to fucking toss in there. I don’t have that kind of money just sitting around. If I just had $1,000 lying around then I wouldn’t even live on this side of town. I’d go to the next city over with the expensive but safe and pretty places to live. So…it’s complicated. It’s always complicated for us. Luckily, this incident occurred a week or so before our lease renewal date, so we dodged a bullet by not signing for another year. Regardless, this is still not something that was planned ahead. We planned to stay here until we could afford better. We weren’t expecting to move out within 30 days. So…yeah..what can I say? It’s just…life, you know? We have to adapt. No matter what happens in the next few days or weeks, we have to adapt. So, we pack. We go where we can, and we do our best. That’s our plan. 🙂

★彡 This is entirely odd for a self-proclaimed tomboy to say, but makeup isn’t so bad. It’s like painting or drawing…except on your face. LOL. Will I wear it everyday? Probably not. But it is still fun.

★彡 I miss the old days when being sprawled on the floor with paper, pencils, and art supplies everywhere was considered a norm. When I look back on my past, those moments were always the highlight. There is really nothing like it. Then again, it’s kind of silly to talk about those moments as if they’ll never happen again. The only thing stopping it is me. That’s something I need to realize: that regaining something from my past is not impossible. Memories are in the past, but not opportunities. One is never too old to restart or continue.

★彡 I finally got around to reading Kick-Ass 2. Wow…just wow. Mark Millar sure knows how write fucked up shit. Fucked up, but good though. I can’t wait until the third one. Or at least I hope there’s a third one. Please don’t end it that way! ;_;

★彡 I’ve been reading “Fluke”. It’s funny as hell. I will always be thankful for this book introducing me to the phrase: “heinous fuckery most foul.”

★彡 I think my TV might be dying. One day while Mark was playing Mass Effect 3, it flashed this red color, and then the colors became REALLY dim. We’ve been messing with the contrast and brightness to make it look decent, but now it has this annoying green tint all of the time. *sigh* One thing after the other. I swear. LOL

★彡 Things to catch up on: The Walking Dead – Season 2, Sherlock Holmes – Season 2, You Only Live Twice, Thunderball, Diamonds are Forever, Game of Thrones – Season 2, Supernatural – Season 8, Stephen Colbert, Parks & Recreation, and…a few others. I can’t recall them all. I just know I’m going to have a busy next few days. >_>

★彡 I’ve been working on a story lately, but I don’t know how it will affect NaNoWriMo. I’m thinking that with all the stuff going on and the general busyness of November, I probably shouldn’t participate at all. I already know that I will have a limited amount of time next month to even breathe. *sigh* That’s fine. It is probably better, creatively, to work freely than to have this 30 day time limit on my back.

★彡 Favorite quote right now – Aziz Ansari: “Better town hall questions: do you fucks with srichacha?”

★彡 Speaking of the town hall debate, these past three debates have been rather interesting. I am really looking forward to the last one. One thing I will definitely do during that debate is read Aisha Tyler and Aziz Ansari’s tweets. They are funny as hell.

★彡 I don’t know what else to say, so I’m going to post Adele’s “Skyfall”. I’ve had it on loop for a while now. It is definitely a worthy Bond theme. Then again, I’m not surprised. It is Adele. No one was expecting her to sing it terribly.

At least I hope not. e_e

Good night. May add more tomorrow.

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