• Time and memory, frozen in crystal

    "Everything feels like your fantasy, a night in your life. Close your eyes to find yourself in a mystic timeline."

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  • Historia Crux

    Hello! My name is Kerrian. I am a 30-year-old New York native who currently lives in Georgia with my 32-year old Illinois native husband Mark. And our 8-year-old blue tabby furbaby Link. And, if all goes well, a baby girl in Summer 2018. That’s pretty much our little family. ^_^

    When I’m not doing family stuff, I’m usually absorbed in one hobby or another. My hobbies include, but are not limited to, drawing, writing stories, playing video games, playing tabletop RPGs, reading regular novels and graphic novels, watching anime, cooking, decorating and organizing everything, learning new facts,  and finding new music, sci-fi, or fantasy creations to obsess over.

    Overall, I’m just trying to live life to the fullest like everyone else. I’m sending good vibrations to everyone! I want us all to win, so keep fighting! Take care!


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Survey + Mythology = Yes!

I’m stressed out with added writer’s block. Time to answer cool questions! ^^

  • Aphrodite: What do you love most about yourself?
    Huehuehue~ I’m amazed by own skills sometimes (don’t look at me like that).
  • Apollo: Do you have any talents?
    A few. My main focus is always drawing though.
  • Ares: What small thing makes you angry?
  • Artemis: What are you hunting for in life?
    A constant, reasonable level of inner peace.
  • Athena: What is/was your best school subject?
    … I aced biology. Like, I did better in biology than art. LOL. I don’t know why. I’m not really that interested in biology, but it sticks for some reason.
  • Demeter: Do you miss anyone?
    I always miss the people I adore.
  • Dionysus: Do you drink alcohol? If so, what’s your beverage of choice?
    Yes. If it’s fruity I will devour it whole and hate myself later.
  • Eros: How do you define your sexuality?
    I am attracted to personalities before anything else. Yes, I do find some people physically attractive, but they’re just eye candy. I can’t develop feelings for a person unless there is a genuine connection present.
  • Gaia: Where’s your favorite place in the world?
    Hmm… Anywhere that is quiet, isolated, and preferably with blankets.
  • Hades: Have you ever had a near-death experience?
    Yes. Now I’m pretty sure my own downfall will likely be clumsiness and/or bad luck.
  • Hecate: What do you think of magic?
    I wish on everything that it was real; however, there is no real evidence out there.
  • Helios: Do you sunburn easily?
    Not at all. I just get sweaty and temporarily darker in the sun.
  • Hephaestus: What’s the coolest thing you’ve ever made or built?
    When I was a kid I used to build landscapes in shoeboxes, cut slits at the top, draw random characters, cut them out, tie those characters to strings, and make these little puppet shows. I’m sure I made better things over the years, but thinking of those little puppet shows always makes me smile. I was so precious ( T w T ).
  • Hera: Are you the jealous type?
    No. If I have time to get jealous then I have time to improve.
  • Hermes: Have you ever stolen anything?
    … I thought I was being cool as a kid by stealing Spice Girl lollipops. Not cool at all.
  • Hestia: Where’s your home away from home?
    My car…? LOL. I don’t know. Home is home. Nowhere else makes me as comfortable.
  • Hyperion: Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?
  • Hypnos: What was your most recent dream about?
    All I remember is Tom Hiddleston(sp?) asking me to recommend a place for him to stay because he was new, and I kept taking him to random places in classified ads that all ended up being comically horrible. LOL
  • Iris: What’s your favorite color palate?
    Pastel blues, pastel pinks, pastel purples–mainly those.
  • Kronos: What’s the stupidest thing you’ve ever eaten?
    Ah, who knows. I’ll shove just about anything in my piehole as long as it’s edible.
  • Nemesis: What’s a time you helped deliver justice?
    Um… I guess when I did jury duties?
  • Nike: What’s your most recent accomplishment?
    I beat Persona 5! Whoo! This is huge for me because I never actually finished a Persona game. The closest I got was the final boss of P3 and then my memory card got corrupted. ^^
  • Nyx: What’s your favorite nighttime activity?
    SLEEP. …And video games.
  • Pan: What do you do for fun?
    Too many things. I draw a lot. I write a lot. I live on YouTube, Netflix, Hulu, and PS Vue. I play a whole lot of video games. I go to the movies regularly. I do plenty of shopping, online and offline. I just keep myself busy and spoiled as often as possible.
  • Persephone: What’s your favorite season of the year?
    Autumn. A nice, rainy autumn day… I could cry right now… especially thinking of this sticky, cocksucking heat outside. ( ; u ; )
  • Poseidon: What’s your favorite sea creature?
    * ALL OF THEM. SEA CREATURES ARE THE BEST (after cats). But if I had to choose only one I would choose jellyfishes.
  • Rhea: What’s your favorite type of nature?
    … Type of nature? I’m not sure what that means. I guess I’ll just choose an aspect of nature that I like. I like forests.
  • Selene: What’s your favorite phase of the moon?
    Waning crescent.
  • Tartarus: What’s your personal hell?
    Being surrounded by countless strangers who are all talking about banal, shallow crap and touching me. I… would choke myself to death… ^_^
  • Thanatos: Is there anyone you just really, really hate?
    I don’t hate anyone. I do hate irritating-ass tendencies though.
  • Uranus: What are your zodiac signs?
    My star sign is Cancer. My Chinese zodiac is fire rabbit. …That’s all I really know. When we start getting into sun/moon/whatever rising then I am completely lost.
  • Zeus: What do you think about thunderstorms?
    Great! Send more!


*sigh* I’m going to get some ice cream.

Fate Is Laughing At Us


Name Your Favorite…

  1. Place: Home, under a blanket. 
  2. Person: Mark. He’s not better than anyone or anything. We’re just really close. As we say, like buttcheeks. (LOL)
  3. Color: Black. I’m obsessed with “fairy-kei” colors at the moment though.
  4. Food: Bibimbap
  5. Smell: Vanilla
  6. Book: Kafka on the Shore
  7. Movie: Amadeus. It’ll probably be Donnie Darko (again) later and then back to Amadeus (again).
  8. Music artist: Masashi Hamauzu
  9. Genre of music: Soundtracks
  10. Genre of literature: More like a sub-genre, but dystopia.
  11. Magazine: Otaku USA
  12. Texture: Alpaca fur
  13. Time of day: Evening
  14. Day of the week: Wednesday
  15. Tumblr: IDK
  16. Thing to do when bored: Draw
  17. Celebrity: Does AJ Lee count? I want to be AJ Lee. 😦
  18. Class in school: Art
  19. Website: Rainymood.com
  20. Drink: Green tea latte
  21. Precious stone: Sapphire
  22. Animal: Cats. Big cats. Small cats. Cats that went extinct thousands of years ago. Cats, man.
  23. Flower: Lily of the valley. So fucking hard to find!
  24. Time in history: Antiquity (more specifically the Roman Empire)
  25. Font: I love to write stories in “Microsoft Himalaya”, so I guess that one.
  26. Video game: The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time
  27. TV show: I really love all the Star Treks, but I guess my fave is Deep Space Nine.
  28. Play: Equus
  29. Sound: Rain. Preferably thunderstorms.
  30. Fruit: Mango
  31. Vegetable: Sweet peas
  32. Store/Shop: Bath & Body Works
  33. Article of clothing you own: My Game of Thrones shirt with the house sigils…which I cannot find.
  34. Fashion/Style: Alexander McQueen anything and Mori fashion.
  35. Pattern: Stripes
  36. Workout: Anything that reminds me of martial arts
  37. Quote: Every word of that poem from Drakengard 3 (“Zero’s Prophecy“).
  38. Historical figure: Alexander the Great
  39. Boy’s name: Alexander
  40. Girl’s name: Zelda
  41. Potato chip flavor: Salt and vinegar
  42. Meal of the day: Dinner
  43. Ice cream flavor: Grapenut
  44. Soda: Ginger ale
  45. Popcorn flavor: Butter
  46. Season: Autumn/Fall
  47. Month of the year: October
  48. Word: Vespertine… and Phantasmagoria.
  49. Disney princess: Pocahontas
  50. Insult: “I haven’t got time for this Mickey Mouse bullshit!”
  51. Joke: I’m a sucker for puns
  52. Cussword: Fuck
  53. Letter: V
  54. YouTube channel: GilvaSunner. My entire childhood, man.
  55. Eye color: Once I saw them in person recently, amber eyes.
  56. Memory: Those summers when I played video games for days straight.
  57. Dessert: Tres leche cake
  58. Candy: Nerds
  59. Restaurant: Chipotle
  60. Lifehack: Sleeping with a silk pillowcase. Hair is nice and smooth when I wake up. 
  61. Language: Latin
  62. Thing to learn about: Interesting, weird and/or funny historical events.
  63. Thing about you: When I give a shit about something I suck at it. When I stop giving a shit I’m good at it.

I Love You Like XO. You Love Me Like XO.


1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
*** I don’t have an iPod or a working mp3 player at that, so I’m just going to list six songs I listen to a lot:

  1. Beyonce’s entire album. ALL OF IT. THE DVD TOO.

  2. Bioshock Infinite – Battle For Columbia IV
  3. Drag-on Dragoon 3 – Ending D Boss Theme
  4. Drag-on Dragoon 3 – Mission Select Menu
  5. Lightning Returns: FFXIII – The Glittering City of Yusnaan
  6. Dragon Age: Origins – The Fade Combat

Honorable mention: LRFFXIII – Bhunivelze/Final Battle. It’s your typical fighting a video game god track, but damn if those vocals do not make me emotional. The female vocals alone just destroy me. Ugh. Beautiful. *wipes tears*

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
*** This is honestly tough. There are too many geniuses on this planet whose brains I would love to pick at.

3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
*** …concerning Jarlaxle’s sincerity.”

4) What do you think about most?
*** Nine times out of ten I am brainstorming for a story, planning a drawing, or letting my imagination take me wherever it feels like going that day.

5) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
*** No, although I had classmates in elementary school put my name in the Pepper-Ann theme song and sing it repeatedly.

6) Do you have any strange phobias?
*** Kind of. I am not afraid of the dark or open doors, but when a door is opened while it is dark I become terrified.

7) What’s your religion?
*** I like to quote Abraham Lincoln on questions like these, so allow me quote him:”When I do good, I feel good. When I do bad, I feel bad. That’s my religion.” That pretty much sums up the philosophy of Buddhism too. Thanks, Mr. Lincoln.

8) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
*** Something I don’t want to do but have to do.

9) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
*** I’m usually caught between Radiohead and The Smashing Pumpkins.

10) What was the last lie you told?
*** “I didn’t hear you.” It’s really aggravating how far some individuals will go to communicate with someone who barely passes as their acquaintance. I spoke to you once like five thousand years ago. Why are you shouting my name across a store like we’re familiar or something? Go away.

11) Do you believe in karma?
*** Yes, but not in the way I often hear others describe it. I do not believe there is some great spirit out there making a checklist of all the good and bad you do. I think karma is our actions responding to the state of our minds. For example, a thief who becomes so plagued with guilt that (s)he cannot think rationally, and unintentionally makes a foolish decision that gets himself/herself caught. Or, another example, a kind person who is always proud of his/her actions, and in turn attracts individuals who constantly reward them for their pleasant ways. That is the best way I can explain my vision of karma.

12) What does your URL mean?
*** It’s a play on Link’s title as the hero of time.

13) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
*** My greatest weakness is…instant gratification. My greatest strength is persistence.

14) Who is your celebrity crush?
*** Manu Bennett. Idris Elba. Dave Bautista. Lee Min-ho. The list is long. ( /) _ (\ )

15) How do you vent your anger?
*** I write. I draw. I listen to music. I read. I take long showers. I play video games. That’s about it.

16) Do you have a collection of anything?
*** Yes. Mostly books, video games, soundtracks, and stationery.

17) Are you happy with the person you’ve become?
*** Um…there is always room for improvement. I don’t think I will ever be 100% content with who I am, and I am okay with that. I find a lot of joy in improving myself.

18) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?
*** I hate the sound of thumping, especially when I am trying to focus or sleep. I love the sound of cats meowing. There is really nothing like it. It’s so cute. ;-;

19) What’s your biggest “what if”?
*** “What if I wasn’t poor?”

20) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
*** Well…I believe there is a possibility that both exists, but I still demand concrete proof before I say it is definite.

21) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
***  Desk with my right arm. Link with my left arm.

22) Smell the air. What do you smell?
*** Noodles. Mark made ramen.

23) What’s the worst place you have ever been to?
***  Hospital. Hospitals are the worst.

24) Most attractive singer/s of your opposite gender?
*** I really can’t think of any, so I’m just going to say Gackt.

25) To you, what is the meaning of life?
*** To make living as pleasant for myself and others as possible.

26) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
*** Yes and yes. I crashed the first time I drove…into a coca-cola ad. It was at a gas station. I reversed at the wrong angle and backed into it. Luckily, it was late, the sign was not damaged (though my car was), and no one was around to be hurt.

27) What was the last movie you saw?
*** In theaters, The Desolation of Smaugh. Recently, Amelie.

28) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?
*** Second-degree burn on my entire right forearm and some of my right thigh. Fire is not my element. At all.

29) Do you have any obsessions right now?
*** Writing–two stories this time. I’m a fucking mess.

30) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
*** Yes. Some people just enjoy being annoying. No helping that. LOL

31) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
*** As the saying goes: “I don’t hold grudges. I remember the facts.” Knowing what others are capable of is the closest we get to social background checks. The same way one wouldn’t hire a thief to work around valuable things, I don’t want to befriend a lowlife who doesn’t know how to leave well enough alone.

32) What is your astrological sign?
*** Cancer.

33) What’s the last thing you purchased?
*** New battery for my laptop. It really sucks have a laptop with no mobility since I have to leave it plugged in all the time.

34) Love or lust?
*** Love.

35) In a relationship?
*** Yes.

36) How many relationships have you had?
*** One.

37) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
*** …I don’t get questions like these. Sorry. If someone likes me, okay. If they dislike me, okay. I don’t understand the point of forcing someone to like me, or relying on “secret weapons” to convince someone to like me.

38) Where is your best friend?
*** Well, she’s as much of a hermit as I am, so more than likely home.

39) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
*** I don’t know. I was more than likely watching TV or playing video games.

40) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
*** Yes. If I had a clone we would have everything in common. That sounds like an ideal friend to me.

41) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
*** Assuming I know how to swim, I will save the dog. Jobs can always be replaced…as tedious as the process is…but a drowning dog forever etched in my memory will make things like productivity very difficult.

42) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
(a) I want to say no but I already know a handful of people who will become pissed at me for not saying anything. I just hate the idea of burdening others as much as I hate the idea of people rushing to spend time with me out of pity.
(b) Sleep in, eat well, play a lot, and that’s it.
(c) No. Death is an absolute in life. There is no point in being afraid of it…much like taxes, insurance, and other dreadful things.

43) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
*** Just one song? Wow, that’s hard. Well, “Hand-to-Hand” has been like magic for my mood ever since I heard it.

44) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
*** Giving each other space to do your own things (rather than forcing yourselves to become this uni-person), being respectful even when you’re arguing, and keeping outsiders out of your relationship. The latter is the biggest one in my opinion. You have to learn early on to look into the eyes of people who are always sticking their nose in your relationship and say: “Mind your fucking business.” It sounds mean but drawing that line in the sand is important.

45) How can I win your heart?
*** Get out of my face. LOL, I’m kidding. But really. If you’re the type of person who says: “Well, you look busy. I’m going to go over here if you need me.” I will adore you forever.

46) Can insanity bring on more creativity?
*** I believe so. Individuals with mental illnesses view life in ways sane people never will, and a large part of that has to do with the fact that they spend a lot of time in their own minds. And where else to find creativity but the mind.

47) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
*** Teaching myself to draw. Yes, my brother was a major influence on that decision, but I have to give myself some credit too for continuing long after he was gone. I get so sappy thinking of all the nights I spent as a girl playing VHS tapes, pausing scenes, drawing them, and repeating until I had piles of my own drawings to feel proud of. It was definitely one of the highlights of my life. Hard work really does pay off. It always does.

48) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
*** “BRB” LOL. I’m garbage. I know.

49) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word “heart.”
*** Attack.

50) Basic question; what’s your favorite color/colors?
*** Black, silver, and teal. All three together is just…yes, please.

51) What is your current desktop picture?
*** Mass Effect.

52) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
*** I would have to choose the most vile tyrant from the long list of vile tyrants in this world, and hope that another vile tyrant does not take his place.

53) What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
*** “What do you think about me?” or “How do you feel about me?”. BRICKS WILL BE SHAT.

54) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
*** Telekinesis. Always telekinesis.

55) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
*** I wouldn’t mind going back to my childhood and reliving one of the summers where I did nothing but play outside.

56) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
*** I can’t think of one singular experience. I would have to erase years, places, and people.

57) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
*** Wet blanket time! Yay! Um…sex is a huge commitment for me. I couldn’t just sleep with someone because I find them attractive. Not that I find anything wrong with that. I just can’t do it. I’m really…iffy about touching others unless I believe I know them extremely well. That’s all.

58) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
*** Wales.

59) Ever been on a plane?
*** Yes.

60) Give me your top 5 hottest celebrities.
*** I already listed some.

You Can Speak Your Mind But Not On My Time.


1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
* Mark

2. Are you outgoing or shy?
* Shy.

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?
* Mark. He’s at work. 😦

4. Are you easy to get along with?
* It depends on my mood and the person attempting to “get along” with me…because I have nothing to say to bigots.

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
* Yes. After laughing at me for being drunk, of course.

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
* Mysterious, intelligent introverts.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?
* I hope so.

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?
* Link. He’s being way too quiet right now, so more than likely he’s doing something bad.

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
* Only when it gets very vulgar and detailed.

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
* Mark.

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?
* I don’t have a phone, so no text messages.

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
* Wow, this is hard. I guess I’ll just go with the songs I’ve been listening to recently:
(1) Cloud Surfing
(2) Mother of Dragons
(3) Sod Off
(4) Hand to Hand
(5) Historia Crux

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?
* NO.

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

15. What good thing happened this summer?
* Um…I finally beat The Witcher 2: Assassins of Kings.

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
* Yes.

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?
* Possibly.

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?
* No.

19. Do you like bubble baths?
* Yes.

20. Do you like your neighbors?
* The ones next to us are okay. The ones behind us must have issues with their noise level…inside and outside their apartment.

21. What are your bad habits?
* Smoking and junk/fast food.

22. Where would you like to travel?
* Wales. Canada. London. New Zealand. Tokyo. Back to Jamaica, specifically Negril. That’s about it.

23. Do you have trust issues?
* Definitely.

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?
* Getting out of work clothes, turning on the XBox, and playing a game or watching Hulu.

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
* I’m not uncomfortable with any part of my body. There is always room for improvement, physically and otherwise, but it is not so important to me that it brings me discomfort.

26. What do you do when you wake up?
* Bargain with my schedule for more time to sleep.

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
* Neither. My skin color is just the way I like it.

28. Who are you most comfortable around?
* Mark.

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?
* I don’t have an exes…so no.

30. Do you ever want to get married?
* I am married.

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?
* Yes.

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?
* Ugh. No. I would never have a threesome. Liking one person enough to make physical contact with their bodily fluids is hard enough. It’s just impossible to reach that level of adoration for two people at once.

33. Spell your name with your chin.
* I’ll pass. LOL

34. Do you play sports? What sports?
* I don’t play sports…because I’m too out of shape to. I would love to play soccer or do something that involves swimming.

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?
* Without TV.

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
* Of course. I can’t find the logic in telling every person I have feelings for that I have feelings for them.

37. What do you say during awkward silences?
* “I have to pee” or some other excuse to disappear.

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?
* I’m going to sound like a cheeseball right now, but Mark is my dream guy. He’s funny, bright, affectionate, and cute. Naturally, he has flaws, but even his flaws are adorable tbh. So…yeah… My dream guy is basically all of those things.

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?
* Stores that revolve around books, hobbies, or various fictional universes are right up my alley. I also love to go to Bath & Body Works to be creepy and smell things for a really long time.

40. What do you want to do after high school?
* I’m already out of high school, and my only ambition in high school was to get the fuck out of high school.

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
* When it comes to really serious offenses like assault, no. There is no second chance after that. But if I was not in harm’s way and the person is practically begging for it then yes. They can work for that forgiveness if that is what they want.

42. If you’re being extremely quiet what does it mean?
* That I am being my normal self. LOL

43. Do you smile at strangers?
* No. The last time I made that mistake some creep started being inappropriate and then started asking me for money.

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?
* Bottom of the ocean.

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
* Money…food…an uncontrollable urge to piss.

46. What are you paranoid about?
* Anyone who stands too close to me or behind me for a long period of time.

47. Have you ever been high?
* Yes.

48. Have you ever been drunk?
* Yes. Once was enough.

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
* No.

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?
* Green.

51. Ever wished you were someone else?
* Nope.

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
* My patience level. That’s about it.

53. Favourite makeup brand?
* On the rare occasion that I try makeup to amuse myself, I use ELF or Black Radiance.

54. Favourite store?
* Book Nooks.

55. Favourite blog?
* I don’t know. I don’t feel like flipping through my bookmarks to choose a favorite.

56. Favourite colour?
* Silver.

57. Favourite food?
* Bibimbap. Hot and cold. I refuse to choose.

58. Last thing you ate?
* Japanese-style curry with rice.

59. First thing you ate this morning?
* Japanese-style curry with rice.

60. Ever won a competition? For what?
* Some art competition…for art.

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?
* Nope.

62. Been arrested? For what?
* Nope.

63. Ever been in love?
* Yes.

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?
* Playing Bushido Blade with Mark, started wrestling each other, and then we kissed.

65. Are you hungry right now?
* I’m not really hungry, but I am in the mood for crab rangoon.

66. Do you like your online friends more than your real friends?
* …Online friends and real friends are just friends to me. I never really thought to separate them, though I can understand why some may wish to.

67. Facebook or Twitter?
* Neither. Not enough nerd shit and jokes.

68. Twitter or Tumblr?
* Tumblr…because it has nerd shit and jokes.

69. Are you watching tv right now?
* I guess Hulu counts as TV, yes.

70. Names of your best friends?
* Tiffa and Mark.

71. Craving something? What?
* Crab rangoon! Ugh, I need some crab rangoon or I’m going to strangle myself.

72. What colour are your towels?
* Just about every color.

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?
* One.

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
* No. One is too big for the bed while the others have been commandeered by Link.

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?
* 3-4.

75. Favourite animal?
* Cats. Domestic cats. Wild cats. Cats that will kill me if they had the chance but I still find them cute.

76. What colour is your underwear?
* Magenta. I only remember this because I had to snip loose threads from it earlier.

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?
* Chocolate.

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?
* Grapenut…even though it’s fucking impossible to find. So, I usually settle for rocky road.

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?
* Green.

80. What colour pants?
* Grey.

81. Favourite tv show?
* Of all time? Geeeez. I don’t know. That’s tough. I do like Deep Space Nine a lot. Shit, I love all the Star Trek series, but DSN is dear to me.

82. Favourite movie?
* Still stuck between Donnie Darko and Amadeus.

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?
* …There’s a Mean Girls 2?

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?
* Mean Girls.

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?
* Damien.

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?
* That turtle. I think his name was Crush.

87. First person you talked to today?
* Mark.

88. Last person you talked to today?
* Mark.

89. Name a person you hate?
* I don’t hate anyone specifically, but I do have a general hatred for people who enjoy making life difficult for others. For example, bullies, racists, sexists, the various other types of bigots, hyper-aggressive asshats, and so on.

90. Name a person you love?
* I love many people.

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
* No. My urge to punch people usually comes after an annoying incident occurs.

92. In a fight with someone?
* No.

93. How many sweatpants do you have?
* I don’t know…like three?

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?
* A lot.

95. Last movie you watched?
* The Wolverine a.k.a Hugh Jackman running around topless and being angry for two hours.

96. Favourite actress?
* Halle Berry

97. Favourite actor?
* Geez…either Gary Oldman or Timothy Dalton.

98. Do you tan a lot?
* I’m permanently tan, so there is no need for that.

99. Have any pets?
* One cat.

100. How are you feeling?
* Chill.

101. Do you type fast?
* According to recent exams, my highest WPM was 100 and my slowest was 81.

102. Do you regret anything from your past?
* There are things in my past I wish never happened, but I don’t regret them. It just seems like a waste of time to dwell on things that I can’t change.

103. Can you spell well?
* I believe so.

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?
* Honestly, no.

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?
* …The fuck is a bonfire party? I guess that answers that question.

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?
* Not purposely. I do recall some dudes who took rejection poorly. That’s not really my fault though.

107. Have you ever been on a horse?
* Yes.

108. What should you be doing?
* Um…I could do some laundry right now, but I’ll wait until later.

109. Is something irritating you right now?
* No.

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
* Yes, I believe it’s called a crush.

111. Do you have trust issues?
* Deja vu.

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
* I can’t recall. Nine times out of ten, I cry alone and far away from everyone.

113. What was your childhood nickname?
* The same nickname I have now: Kerri.

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?
* Yes.

115. Do you play the Wii?
* Not recently.

116. Are you listening to music right now?
* No. Watching/Listening to Jane Eyre.

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?
* Yes.

118. Do you like Chinese food?
* Yes.

119. Favourite book?
* Brave New World.

120. Are you afraid of the dark?
* No.

121. Are you mean?
* I don’t believe so. I’ve been called mean several times in the past, but it’s always for being asocial, defending myself (how awful of me) and/or choosing a logical decision over an emotional one.

122. Is cheating ever okay?
* No. It’s generally not okay to promise someone one thing and then choose to do the opposite.

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?
* No.

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?
* I believe in lust at first sight, but not love.

125. Do you believe in true love?
* True love is a strange phrase. Love is supposed to be true by definition, isn’t it? ~Aaaand I’m overcomplicating things, as always. LOL. Sorry.

126. Are you currently bored?
* Somewhat.

127. What makes you happy?
* Being around the people I love and being alone with my hobbies. Also, food. Also, adventures. That’s about it.

128. Would you change your name?
* Nope. I actually really like my name.

129. What your zodiac sign?
* Cancer.

130. Do you like subway?
* Both the restaurant and the method of transportation, yes.

131. Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
* Mark is my best friend of the opposite sex, so I’m okay with hat.

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
* …Pretty sure I answered this too.

133. Favourite lyrics right now?
* Billy Joel – My Life.

134. Can you count to one million?
* Yes, but I have more entertaining things to do.

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?
* When I was younger, I convinced my neighbor’s son that there was a dragon living in my apartment.

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?
* CLOSED. It is very serious for me.

137. How tall are you?
* 5’6″.

138. Curly or Straight hair?
* Naturally curly, presently straight.

139. Brunette or Blonde?
* For myself, brunette. In terms of attractiveness…brunette.

140. Summer or Winter?
* Winter.

141. Night or Day?
* Night.

142. Favourite month?
* Uh…I guess October. Halloween is my favorite holiday, so…yeah.

143. Are you a vegetarian?
* No.

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?
* May I choose all of the above? If not, white, I guess.

145. Tea or Coffee?
* Tea.

146. Was today a good day?
* Yeah. I got a new book about Sun Wukong/Monkey.

147. Mars or Snickers?
* Never had Mars, so Snickers.

148. What’s your favourite quote?
Albert Einstein: “The woman who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd. The woman who walks alone is likely to find herself in places no one has ever been before.”  That quote really changed my perspective on everything while I was in high school. It still does.

149. Do you believe in ghosts?
* My innate need to be pragmatic is telling me no, but I’ve seen some shit. LOL. I’m just going to pretend I’m seeing things because the thought of being followed about by dead humans is not comforting.

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?
* “Not Cersei. Tyrion. He swore it, in open court. And the kingslayer swore it as well.”

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(ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ~『✧~*ABOUT YOU*~✧』

1. Are you more feminine or masculine?
* I’d say I’m more masculine, but I’m feminine too. “Tomboy” is the term.

2. Are you tall or short?
* Tall…based on the fact that I’m two inches taller than the average height for women.

3. What’s your favorite color?
* Silver.

4. What do you love about yourself?
* Many things.

5. What’s your greatest flaw?
* I can be really self-defeating. I just hold myself to really high standards that no human being can meet. I’m just a butt.

6. Do you see yourself differently than other people describe you?
* …It depends. Some people are very accurate in their analysis of me, but other people really lack depth. So, they can only point out surface things that are either obvious or false.

7. What are you really, really good at?
* I don’t think I’m really, really good at anything. I’m decent at drawing and writing, I guess.

8. What’s something you’re bad at, but love?
* I think I’m bad at video games, but I still love them to death. Then again…maybe not. I’m the type of person who likes to take my time with games…which is probably why I am more of an RPG, puzzle, and strategy fan. Maybe I’m not bad then. I just suck at things like shooters and high-paced action games.

9. What’s something people have tried to force you to do?
* I get forced to socialize a lot. It’s…really annoying.

10. How do you spend your free time?
* Drawing, writing, playing video games, reading, watching TV shows and movies…that’s about it.

11. Describe the way you dress in one sentence.
* I dress comfortably and according to my interests.

12. Have you ever gotten your nails professionally painted?
* Yeah, my sister took me out to a nail salon once.

13. What is the most insulting thing anyone has said to you?
* One insult doesn’t stand out from another to me.

14. Favorite game?
* Ocarina of Time.

15. What color is your hair?
* Dark brown…? I’ve been told that it looks reddish at times.


16. Do you believe in God?
* No. There is no credible means of proving whether a higher power does or does not exist. So, I’d rather not resort to extremes, even if it gets me written off as an indecisive and wishy-washy person. All I can do as a human being is be the best human being I can be. What comes after that is out of my control.

17. Is men’s rights a thing?
* No. “Men’s rights” is a fool’s errand. The same goes for “white rights” and “heterosexual rights” too (Yes, these do exist). Instead of inventing causes for issues that don’t exist, try fighting for a reasonable cause that benefits everyone in the long run. Seriously, just admit when you’re privileged. It’s not hard to do. For example, I am not privileged as a black woman, but I can admit that I am privileged as a heterosexual. That is why I am so determined to aid homosexuals and bisexuals in obtaining the same rights I have. It’s not only decent but sensible. I cannot grasp how anyone can do something like see a group of people lacking rights and say: “No! It’s my group that lacks rights!” Get over yourselves.

18. Does love really exist?
* Love will always be biological at the end of the day. Even concepts like “caring” is really attachment, and attachment is a result of not wanting to let go of someone who makes survival easier for us. I do find the romantic aspect of love to be warming, but realistically it is just hormones plus our biological need to procreate and protect those we depend on.

19. Can science explain everything, eventually?
* To receive this question after the last answer…Heh heh heh. Back to the question. My answer is no. Science cannot explain everything. Even the best scientists will tell you that some things cannot be explained with science alone. Will it be explained eventually? That’s a huge possibility. The last thing I will ever do is underestimate the power of science, but I don’t want to treat it as an end-all to everything that occurs either. Once more, I leave doors open and prefer not to rely on extremes.

20. Are we raised into what we love, or do we come to love it based on how we were raised?
* Neither. I don’t believe how we are raised has anything to do with what we love. We can definitely choose to look back on our upbringing to determine things we both love and hate, but we can also choose to disregard our upbringing altogether.

21. How do you feel about the school system?
* Heh…this reply is going to end in a 5-page essay. So, I’m just going to say watch Watching For Superman.

22. Do you believe in fate/destiny?
* No. Not much to say about that…just no.

23. What is art?
* This question brings back memories of hours wasted in art classes listening to pretentious elitists belittle one artist to praise another. So, I’ll make this reply short. Art has many purposes. It’s supposed to tell stories, make us think, supply information, entertain us, motivate us, anger us–the list goes on. In other words, there is no wrong way to make art. The moment one person connects to a work of art, it is art. Even if the only person who connects to a work of art is the artist, it is still art. It has nothing to do with popularity. A painting is not fucking facebook. No one cares if you like it. It’s still art at the end of the day. It’s that simple.

24. Do we define ourselves, or does our past?
* Neither. At least for me. I can’t trust a person to define himself/herself without bias, and relying on someone’s past to tell their story is always unreliable. We only have so much control of the circumstances we find ourselves in. I find it’s easier to define people through their passions. If a person chooses to do something for years of their life then that something must say a lot of insightful things about him/her.

25. What happens after we die?
* Who knows? I don’t care. If I have ten days to live, why should I spend it worrying about whether there may or may not be something after that. I’d rather enjoy those ten days, and if there is more after that then I’ll just try to enjoy that too. If I can’t enjoy the afterlife, at least I can say my last ten days as a living being were enjoyable.

26. Do humans matter–tiny specs on a floating piece of rock in a solar 27. system in a galaxy in an infinite universe?
* We don’t matter to the galaxy, perhaps, but while we are on earth we matter. That’s what counts in the end.

28. Is there good in everyone?
* Yes. Definitely. But the sad truth is that some people will die before that good ever resurfaces again.

29. Does apathy really exist?
* I believe so.

29. Is human life only valuable because our society makes it?
* If I said no, it could be seen as me being brainwashed by our social standards. LOL. I guess if we did live in a society that didn’t value human life then human life would not be valuable. Come to think of it…some cultures consider babies born female or deformed to be of no value. So…it’s not too far off to say that the value of a person’s life is often set on the values of the society (s)he is born in.

30. How do you feel about society, the vague “they” blamed for everything?
* Society is society’s problem but society is also society’s solution. I believe the saying is “be the change you want to see in the world”. I don’t think a person is being mean-spirited in any way by pointing out that society is flawed. It’s the most obvious statement out there. But a person who has a “not my problem” attitude towards those flaws is not helping anything. When you think about the things that are good about society, they didn’t get there by responding to everything with “not my problem”. It sometimes takes apologizing for the shitty people and fixing their mistakes. It’s a pain in the ass, yes, but it helps to remember that the people we love are also a part of this society. So, we can make an honest effort to make life even a little easier for them. That probably didn’t answer anything but those are my feelings on society in general. Very...Ghost in the Shell-y. XD


31. What gender do you prefer?
* Males.

32. What’s the first thing you notice about someone?
* …Their face?

33. Could you love someone you found ugly?
* Yes, but to find someone I both love and consider attractive (like Mark) is a jackpot. So…I think it’s better to seek “jackpots” instead of settling for someone you like but find unattractive or someone you dislike but find attractive.

34. Favorite hair color?
* Black, damn near black, or white/silver. The black hair part is easy. Almost everyone has dark hair. But finding a guy with white hair outside of fiction that isn’t old enough to be my grandfather is a rarity. So, the white hair is reserved for fictional guys at this point. LOL. Seriously, though, I’m not picky. If I wasn’t with Mark and I fell in love with a redhead or something I’m not going to say: “Sorry. We can’t go out. Your hair is red.” It’s just a dumb preference thing.

35. Favorite eye color?
* When it comes to eye colors, I am actually passive. I can’t think of an eye color that “drives me crazy”. It probably has a lot to do with the fact that I rarely make eye contact, and to make eye contact with anyone I am in love with is very rewarding for me. I’m definitely the type who would date a person and have no idea what their real eye color was. I just don’t care.

36. Ideal height?
* …Equal height or taller. Close to my height is good. I don’t want to constantly bend or tiptoe to kiss. Yikes, I sound so picky. How am I not single? LOL

37. Describe, personality-wise, what your ideal boy/girlfriend would be like?
* (This is assuming I wasn’t with Mark) Introverted, intellectual, calm, self-reliant. Yeah, that’s really it. I also like really serious guys but that’s not mandatory. I just can’t bring myself to date guys who are talkative, hyperactive, dense, clingy, and/or prone to emotional outbursts. I can befriend them, but I can’t date them. I don’t have the skills to handle someone like that day in and day out. Both silence and solitude are very important to me.

38. Describe, appearance-wise, what your ideal boy/girlfriend would be like?
* (Using the same assumption as the prior question) Um…I don’t really care. As long as his appearance doesn’t make me fret for his well-being on a daily basis, I am fine with it. That’s honestly the only reason why I’d avoid dating an emaciated or morbidly obese guy (I’m talking like 400+ pounds). I’d just annoy him everyday by being overly protective. I mean, Mark is a healthy-looking guy, and I am the type to panic if he looks even two shades paler than usual. That’s just how I am. So…yeah.

39. What do you look for–brains or looks?
* I’m definitely a brains person. Regardless of how a person looks, I will run for the door if I find them too irritating to even hold a conversation with.

40. Could you fall in love online?
* Possibly. Seeing how I keep everyone at a distance anyway, a long-distance relationship wouldn’t be too different.

41. How much of an age cap can you handle?
* No more than 10…unless the guy is so perfect that I have to break that rule.

42. How would you introduce yourself on a blind date?
* For the record, I’d only end up on a blind date if I was somehow tricked into it. LOL. But I guess I’d do my usual: “Uh…I’m Kerri…uh…hey…oh, I forgot to ask your name I’m so sorry…uh…wow, sorry…”

43. Could you forgive a cheater?
* The first time, yes. The second time, no. I give second chances because I know from experience how meaningful it is to redeem yourself after hurting someone you really care about, but I also know from experience that when you really regret a mistake you don’t make it again. There is a major difference between asking forgiveness because you want to make things right and asking forgiveness so you can feel better. I believe that a person who cannot understand the difference should not be allowed endless opportunities to learn on my behalf.

44. Is lying about something serious as bad as cheating?
* Hmm…the only lie I can think of that is as bad as cheating is leading a double life as a criminal (that’s actually worse than cheating) or lying about having children. Those are pretty bad.

45. Right now, you could call the person you like/love (if you aren’t dating/engaged/married already), or show up at their front door, and just confess or kiss them or whatever. What’s stopping you?
*I’m already married, so no one.

“Ya’ll Motherfuckers Need Science.”


1: What do you like to do in your spare time?
* Write, draw, read, play video games, or watch movies/TV.

2: Name a favorite of each: food, drink, color.
Food: bibimbap
Drink: green tea
Color: black

3: If you married rich and your spouse gave you $100,000 a week, what would you spend it on?
* I would never spend $100,000 in a week, even if Mark and I had billions at our disposal. Well…if we’re buying a home or something, that’s one thing. But to just spend $100,000 at the mall or something is an absolute no. My first priority is savings and investments so my family, future children, future grandchildren, etc. won’t have to want when I am gone. Once everyone is taken care of, I’d like to have at least one million in savings and decent investments. I will spend money on necessities, charity, random art projects, classes (whether for college or miscellaneous skills), and hobbies, but the most I see myself spending in a week is…$1,000-$2,000.

4: Name a favorite of each: book, movie, TV show.
These change from time to time.
Book: Atlas Shrugged
Movie: Amadeus
TV Show: Star Trek (still leaning more towards Deep Space Nine)

5: If you were given the opportunity to spend 48 hours with absolutely anyone (living or dead), who would you spend it with and what would you do?
* I would like to spend it with Siddhartha Gautama/Buddha. I want to speak with him about our world right now and hear his stance on every possible issue we can cover in 48 hours.

6: Name a LEAST favorite of each: food, drink, color.
* Food: okra; Drink: anything bitter; Color: orange

7: What do you spend most of your money on?
* Bills. I’d say 90% of my money goes towards bills and debts…just to put into perspective how poor I am. XDD

8: What kind of underwear do you prefer wearing?
* Anything comfortable.

9: Name a LEAST favorite of each: book, movie, TV show.
* Let’s just call this recent book, movie, and TV show that was so bad it angered me.
Book: Fifty Shades of Grey (I watched porns with better plots)
Movie: Silent Hill: Revelation (I’m glad we saw this at the dollar theater because if we paid $20 for this…I’d be so heated.)
TV Show: American Idol (a.k.a. weeks of talentless fame addicts followed by weeks of a small group of decent singers who are voted off based on their popularity until a mediocre yet well-liked singer ends up winning before fading into obscurity.)

10: If you were sat on a plane beside your favorite celebrity, what would you do?
* Nothing. At the end of the day, celebrities are still strangers, and there are a lot of boundaries when it comes to strangers. So, I wouldn’t say or do anything. I’d just do what I always do on planes: have manners, cooperate, and make the trip as pleasant as possible  for everyone around me.

11: What is the strangest thing you have in your room? (You are not allowed to explain why you own it.)
* A 5 foot teddy bear.

12: What is a weird habit you have, or people have told you have. 
* The fact that I enjoy solitude freaks people out a lot. I’m usually accused of holding some dark upsetting secret, plotting something, or disapproving of the people around me simply because I enjoy silence. And I’m the one with an overactive imagination. LOL

13: What would you consider to be the biggest insult to yourself?
* To let someone else control my life is the biggest insult to myself that I can think of. It’s one thing to follow orders for money or some other means of survival, but the idea of allowing someone to tell me what I can or cannot enjoy simply because they insist on it is unacceptable.

14: What are five things you absolutely have to have in your dream house?
* Outside of the obvious utilities, (1) Multiple bathrooms, (2) Plenty of counter space in the kitchen, (3) Plenty of space between my home and my neighbors’ homes, (4) a garage, and (5) a front and/or back yard to garden.

15: If you could be reincarnated as any animal, which would you chose and why?
* Preferably any animal with wings so I can travel around the world and harass people for bread.

16:Which band (current or past) would you want to go on tour* with? (*Travel with, not perform with.)
* The Spice Girls might be fun to go on tour with.

17: Name a favorite of each: band, album, song.
Band: Radiohead
Album: Nier Replicant/Gestalt OST
Song: Yoko Kanno and Ilaria Graziano – “Christmas in the Silent Forest”

18: Why is your favorite band your favorite?
* Despite the amount of years they’ve been out, their style remained mostly consistent and their lyrics are still very easy to relate to. I also like the songs Thom Yorke did on his own.

19: How many concerts have you attended? Which was your favorite? Least favorite? If none, who do you want to see live the most?
* Willingly? None. I’d like to see Radiohead, Daft Punk, Muse, Bjork, Beyonce, Fleetwood Mac, and many composers.

20: What is one of your favorite song lyrics? (Who is it by?)
* I love “Army of Me” by Bjork. I like to listen to the lyrics whenever I need motivation to do something difficult.

21:Who do you ship?
* Well, most of the couples I ship are already canon. I guess the only non-canon one that stands out is Regal x Zelos. I wouldn’t call it a crack ship, but it’s still relatively unpopular.

Long-Ass Survey

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
Mark, of course.

2. Are you outgoing or shy?
Shy, I guess. Avoidant would be more accurate.

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?
He’s already home.

4. Are you easy to get along with?
Most of the time. I don’t get along with people who expect me to tolerate mistreatment. Then again, I don’t think anyone gets along with individuals who like to mistreat them.

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
Introverted, intellectual, creative, and humorous individuals.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?
I hope so.

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?
Link. He looks like he’s plotting to jump on something he knows he shouldn’t be jumping on.

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
It depends on the person that I am talking to.

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?
I don’t feel like looking at my phone. -_-

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
At this moment: Joga (Bjork), C.R.E.A.M. (Wu-Tang Clan), Black Ocean (Imeruat), Eclipse (Masashi Hamazu/Naoshi Mizuta/Mitsuo Suzuki), and Dayvd (Pogo)

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?
NO. Do not touch my hair under any circumstance.

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

15. What good thing happened this summer?
Um…my birthday, I guess.

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?
No. He’s all the way in New York and I forgot his name.

19. Do you like bubble baths?

20. Do you like your neighbors?
They’re cool. I’m just grateful that horrible neighbor I had before is gone. 

21. What are your bad habits?
Gratuitous swearing. I say ‘um’ and ‘oh’ a lot. Imagining battle scenes in the middle of most conversations.

22. Where would you like to travel?
Somewhere with a lot of grass, hills, and trees.

23. Do you have trust issues?
Definitely, and I see no reason to fix them. The less vulnerabilities, the better.

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?
It’s a tie between showering and eating.

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
Hmm…I don’t know. I’m pretty okay with myself.

26. What do you do when you wake up?
Bargain with my schedule for more sleep.

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
Hell no. This skin color is like caramel. *_*

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?
I have no exes. 

30. Do you ever want to get married?
I am married.

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?
Lot a very long one. Depending on where I tie it, it either looks like Sheva Alomar’s or Shikamaru Nara’s.

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?
None. It sounds unsanitary.

33. Spell your name with your chin.

34. Do you play sports? What sports?
No, but I’d love to play soccer/football.

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?
Without TV.

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
Almost all of the time, yes. I never felt it was necessary to confess my feelings to the people I liked since I saw a future with none of them. I only opened up to Mark because I saw potential for a relationship.

37. What do you say during awkward silences?
“Um…yeah…I’m going to go for a walk.”

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?
Um…basically everything Mark is.

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?
Bookstores. If I am not careful, I will ruin my life in a bookstore.

40. What do you want to do after high school?
Never return there ever again. 

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
It depends on the offense and the person.

42. If you’re being extremely quiet what does it mean?
I’m having a normal day. LOL

43. Do you smile at strangers?

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?
Bottom of the ocean.

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
Toilet, money, food, and/or entertainment.

46. What are you paranoid about?
Things not going as they should. I do not like surprises.

47. Have you ever been high?

48. Have you ever been drunk?
Yes. All I did was sleep and wake up crappy. So, I might as well drink something that is actually delicious, and sleep well. /wetblanket

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
I don’t want anyone to find out pretty much 80% of my life. I only divulge information that I consider useless.

50. What was the color of the last hoodie you wore?

51. Ever wished you were someone else?
I only wish to be better versions of myself.

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
Um…I guess being fit would be nice since I want to be a better martial artist.

53. Favorite makeup brand?
None in particular, although I’m interested in e.l.f.

54. Favorite store?
Barnes & Noble

55. Favorite blog?

56. Favorite color?
If I had to choose one, silver.

57. Favorite food?

58. Last thing you ate?
Oven baked breaded chicken with mixed vegetables.

59. First thing you ate this morning?

60. Ever won a competition? For what?
Yes. Mainly for art.

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

62. Been arrested? For what?

63. Ever been in love?

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?
Basically, we’re playing Bushido Blade and he keeps cornering my character, so we start wrestling for his controller. Somehow, we ended up kissing during the struggle. 

65. Are you hungry right now?

66. Do you like your online friends more than your real friends?
As far as I’m concerned, they all fall in the same friend category.

67. Facebook or Twitter?

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

69. Are you watching TV right now?
I’m watching Mark play Skyrim.

70. Names of your future children?
There will definitely be a Zelda if I have a girl. I’ll leave it at that.

71. Craving something? What?
Yes. Oranges. 

72. What color are your towels?

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?
One. Sometimes none.

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?
Um…maybe like five? I have this bear who is as tall as me (I’m 5’6″) but there is no space on the bed for him. So, he just watches us from across the room. It gets a little scary sometimes.

75. Favorite animal?
Lions are cool. I’m pretty much cool with the whole cat family.

76. What color is your underwear?
Not answering.

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

78. Favorite ice cream flavor?
Grape-nut ice cream. It’s so hard to find though! >_<

79. What color shirt are you wearing?

80. What color pants?

81. Favorite TV show?
So hard to choose! Um…I guess I’m really into Super Sentai. Have been for a while now…as in almost all of my life. LOL. It’s a really fun and carefree series. It always makes me happy. Gokaiger is especially awesome for putting all the different series together. *w*

82. Favorite movie?
Kind of caught between Amadeus and Donnie Darko. Amadeus involves great music and amazing storytelling, but Donnie Darko is so thought-provoking. It’s definitely tough. I hate to choose!

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?
There’s a second one? Wow. I guess that answers that question.

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?
Mean Girls. I probably quote that movie too much.

85. Favorite character from Mean Girls?
Damian. Everything he said was hilarious. My favorite: “She doesn’t even go here!” 

86. Favorite character from Finding Nemo?
Crush. That’s a chill-ass turtle.

87. First person you talked to today?
Mark, I think. I remember a telemarketer called my phone, but I don’t know if I spoke to her first or Mark.

88. Last person you talked to today?
Still talking to Mark, so I guess Mark.

89. Name a person you hate?
I hate people who hurt children and animals. I hate rapists. I hate robbers. I hate predators in general. I wish they could be shipped off to some penitentiary in space where no one on Earth has to breathe the same air as them again.

90. Name a person you love?
Too many to list.

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

92. In a fight with someone?

93. How many sweatpants do you have?
Two? Three?

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?
…A lot.

95. Last movie you watched?
In theaters? Skyfall. At home? The Prestige.

96. Favorite actress?
Halle Berry.

97. Favorite actor?
Gary Oldman.

98. Do you tan a lot?
I was born tan. 8|

99. Have any pets?
One cat…who might as well be ten cats.

100. How are you feeling?

101. Do you type fast?
I’ve been told that I do.  

102. Do you regret anything from your past?
A few things, but not so much that I would wish to go back and change it. You live, you learn.

103. Can you spell well?

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?
Nope. If they mattered, they would be here.

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?
No. Sounds boring.

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?
I don’t think so. If I did, I wasn’t trying to.

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

108. What should you be doing?
Something more productive, I guess.

109. Is something irritating you right now?
Yes. Bills. I hate bills.

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

111. Do you have trust issues?
…Pretty sure I answered this already.

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

113. What was your childhood nickname?

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

115. Do you play the Wii?
Yes. Especially Skyward Sword and the retro games I downloaded from the shopping channel. 

116. Are you listening to music right now?
Just Skyrim’s amazing music. *.*

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?
Yes, especially when I’m sick. That’s the only thing I’ll eat.

118. Do you like Chinese food?
Aw yis.

119. Favorite book?

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

121. Are you mean?

122. Is stealing ever okay?
No, but I can understand why someone would steal necessities if (s)he or his/her loved ones were on the verge of death or something.

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

125. Do you believe in true love?
No. Honestly, concepts like “true love” and “soulmates” are really dangerous to relationships because it breeds hubris. A successful relationship is promised to no one.

126. Are you currently bored?

127. What makes you happy?
Solitude, silence, video games, music, food, sleep, cats, cuddling, rain, snow, books, tea, cooking, stargazing, and good movies or TV shows.

128. Would you change your name?
Um…it sounds like fun at first, but I’m so used to “Kerri” that if someone called me something else I would forget it’s me. LOL

129. What your zodiac sign?
Cancer the Crab.

130. Do you like subway?
Yes. I enjoy both the restaurant and the place where you wait for trains to come.

131. Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
I guess Mark would be my best friend of the opposite sex, and if he likes me then I’m happy.

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
…I think I answered this too.

133. Favorite lyrics right now?
Bush – “Sound of Winter”

134. Can you count to one million?
I’m sure I can but I’d rather not.

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?
I convinced this little kid that I had a dragon living in my house during my childhood. He was legit terrified. I was a horrible child. LOL

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?
CLOSE THEM SHITS. I hate open doors when I sleep.

137. How tall are you?
Five six.

138. Curly or Straight hair?
Prefer curly. Mine is straight at the moment.

139. Brunette or Blonde?

140. Summer or Winter?
Autumn. (Breaking the rules, guys. I’m out of control.)

141. Night or Day?

142. Favorite month?
Um…October, I guess. Halloween is my favorite holiday.

143. Are you a vegetarian?

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

145. Tea or Coffee?

146. Was today a good day?
Yeah…not bad.

147. Mars or Snickers?
I thought Mars made Snickers…

148. What’s your favorite quote?
Too many. 

149. Do you believe in ghosts?
My logic is telling me no~ but my eyeballs, my eyeballs are telling me yes~

150. Get the closet book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?
Nah, man.

( This had me laughing for a long ass time. )

Zero – Who was your last text from?
** Mark.

One – What/who is your icon?
** My current gravatar icon is Link and Fi.

Two- Your relationship status?
** Married.

Three – Have you ever lost a close friend?
** Well…by the time she moved, we weren’t close anymore, and barely friends at all. So, technically, no.

Four – What is your current mood?
** Bored. Kind of tired, but I don’t want to sleep too early or I’ll screw my sleeping schedule up.

Five – What’s your brother(s)/sister(s)names?
** Damion, Daidrie, and Sheena.

Six – Where do you wish you were right now?
** I’m right where I want to be.

Seven – Have a crazy side?
** …I would say so, yes.

Eight – Ever had a near death experience?
** Yes.

Nine- Something you do a lot?
** Draw and write.

Ten – Angry at anyone?
** Nope.

Eleven – What’s stopping you from going for the person you like ?
** Nothing. We’re already together.

Twelve – When was the last time you cried?
** I can’t remember, but I know I was upset because I screwed up something I was working on really bad.

Thirteen- What are you really good at ?
** I don’t know if I’m really good at anything, but I’m decent at many things.

Fourteen – What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
** I typically think about what I want to do the next day.

Fifteen- What were you doing yesterday at 10pm?
** I think I was wandering around Toys R Us with Mark.

Sixteen – Do you prefer light or dark hair on the opposite sex ?
** Dark hair

Seventeen – Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
** I don’t remember.

Eighteen – What is/are your favorite band(s)?
** I like Radiohead, Muse, The Beatles, The Smashing Pumpkins, Daft Punk, Massive Attack, Freesscape, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Bush, and a lot more. Too lazy to list ’em all.

Nineteen – What are you doing right now?
** Doing this survey. Watching Deep Space Nine. Waiting for dinner to marinate before cooking.

Twenty – Who do you trust 100% right now?
** Mark.

Twenty one – Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
** I don’t know. My brother sent it to me.

Twenty two – Heavy metal music?
** It’s good.

Twenty three- Who was the last person you hugged?
** Mark.

Twenty four- Is there anything you’re hiding from someone?
** Not from anyone that matters.

Twenty five – Who are you thinking of right now?
** I’m thinking about Mark, and hoping no one at his job is annoying him.

Twenty six – What should you be doing right now?
** I could be working on Nanowrimo, I guess, but I’m stuck. 😐

Twenty seven – What are you listening to?
** Bashir and O’Brien singing in Deep Space Nine. XD

Twenty eight – You need new jeans. Quick where do you go?
** I don’t know. Somewhere like TJ Maxx or Ross or Marshall’s. I’m frugal when it comes to clothes.

Twenty nine – Who was the last person who yelled at you?
** I don’t remember. Then again, few people yell at me. Most assume I am time bomb waiting to go off for some reason.

Thirty – Do you act differently around the person you like?
** Yes. I am very playful and goofy when he’s around.

Thirty one – What is your eye color?
** Brown.

Thirty two – Who was the last person to make you laugh?
** Mark.

Thirty three – Who was the last person to make you angry?
** Um…I was pretty annoyed with this lady at Toys R Us who kept staring at Mark and me for like five minutes. When we caught her, she grabbed some random toy off the shelf and stood next to us like a creeper until we decided to go somewhere else. I don’t get it either. People do dumb things. A lot.

Thirty four – Hello Kitty or Dora?
** Hello Kitty.

Thirty five – Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
** Curly.

Thirty six – Hug anyone of opposite sex in past 24 hours?
** Mark…and Link, if cats count. He is a dude.

Thirty seven – One thing you want right now?
** Rice! I’m going to make some now. >_>

Thirty eight – Will you fall in love in the next few months?
** No.

Thirty nine – What does the 5th text in your inbox say?
** Don’t feel like searching my phone for it, or posting my private messages.

Forty – Are you worried about the future?
** No. Whatever happens, I will best it.

Forty one – Are you happy with life right now?
** Yes. Of course, it needs improvement, but it’s not a bad life.

Forty two – Are you currently jealous?
** No. For the most part, the people around me worked hard for the things they have. Even the ones who were handed things all of their lives were handed things out of sheer luck. So, no point in getting angry or upset about either of those things.

Forty three – Who’s your best guy friend?
** Mark.

Forty four -Do you forgive or forget?
** I forgive. I will give someone a second chance/clean slate, but I don’t forget.

Forty five – What do you miss the most about elementary school?
** Art class…summer vacation…and other vacations…and recess. Basically, I miss not doing shit.

Forty six – Favorite Disney Channel show ?
** …I don’t know. I haven’t watched the Disney channel in eons. I always liked “That’s So Raven”.

Forty seven – Are you nervous about anything?
** This entire week, but I’ll do my best.

Forty Eight – What are you looking forward to?
** The holidays being over. I enjoy the decorations and food, but I hate the busyness and madness.

Forty nine – Does anyone like you right now?
** Not that I know of.

Fifty- Lyrics to the song you’re listening to?
** I’m not listening to a song. Then again, most songs I listen to don’t have lyrics, so I guess I wouldn’t post anything either way.

Writer’s Challenge

This is supposed to be a 30 day challenge, but I’m going to make a survey of it…because I’m impatient. Be warned that pretty much all of my answers will revolve around Mythos since that’s the project I am working on the most these days. 

01 → Your favorite writ­ing project/universe that you’ve worked with.
** I made a project during my early adolescence called “Lumina: The Last Child”, and it was the first project I made that did not revolve around an anime or game I was obsessed with. It came from my own genuine fascination with the concept of the apocalypse, and what happens when no hero pops up to stop it. Actually, a lot of characters and plot ideas for future projects like “Messengers: Guardians of the Cross” (now “Mythos”), and “Venus Avalon” (abandoned ages ago) came from Lumina. My domain name came from reminiscing about Lumina, and attempting to create a word that was a spin off of that word ‘lumina’. I really did enjoy that project. Maybe one day, for nostalgic reasons, I will revive it. Why not? 😛

02 → How many char­ac­ters do you have? Do you pre­fer males or females?
** Outside of the five major characters, there are a lot of minor characters who play an important role in the developing war. I do prefer to write about females as opposed to males. Outside of Mythos, just about every project I am working on has a female protagonist with a predominantly female cast. In Mythos, though, the main character role is split between Odin (male) and Elda (female). The male-female ratio is also an even split.

03 → How do you come up with character names?
** I mainly look to mythology. I also have this ongoing list of names that I like, and I tend to go to that list for names.

04→ Your first stories/characters.
** My first story was a complete Sailor Moon ripoff. It was called “The Kitty Jewels”, and it had five girls who did the whole magical girl, henshin, love-and-friendship-solves-everything approach. As you probably guessed, each girl was named after a jewel. I had Diamond Kitty, Pearl Kitty, Sapphire Kitty, Emerald Kitty, and Ruby Kitty. Once more, blatant ripoff XDDD. But it was definitely fun. It was the first time I put this entire world into writing and drawing. I was so proud of it. Definitely a childhood highlight I will always remember. I would not go about reviving it though. I mean…I enjoy the whole magical girl and jewelry idea, but I’ll still always associate it with shamelessly taking from Sailor Moon. @_@

05→ By age, who are your youngest /oldest char­ac­ters?
** Elda is the oldest at 107 years, and Silvain is the youngest at 15 years.

06 → Where are and you most com­fort­able writ­ing? Use the 5 W’s.
** I may be answering this wrong, but the wording is a bit confusing to me. I will do my best nonetheless.

  • Who? I am most comfortable writing about characters who make an effort to break away from the molds set for them by their society. I am not very good at writing about people who just blindly accept everything that they see and hear.
  • What? I am most comfortable writing about destruction…as strange as that is.
  • When? I am comfortable writing in medieval settings, or hybrid-eras (industrial-modern, renaissance-futuristic, etc.).
  • Where? I tend to write about kingdoms a lot. I find a large group of people falling under one nation, and attempting to agree with one vision of their nation interesting.
  • Why? I am most comfortable writing because it gives me the chance to organize my thoughts and ideas.

07 → Do you lis­ten to music while you write? What kind? How do you relate music to your writing?
** Yes. I mainly listen to instrumentals because I have this thing about people not speaking while I am writing. I find it to be too distracting. Sometimes I will listen to music with words, but the singing has to be very gentle or in a language that I don’t understand so I won’t unintentionally allow the lyrics to influence my writing. I tend to divide music into different themes like battle songs, romance songs, sad songs, upbeat songs, town/village/city songs, etc. It’s pretty fun. ^^;

08 → What’s your favorite genre to write? To read?
** I love to write fantasy, but I prefer to read military science fiction or stories that can be classified as space operas. Actually, I love to read just about every genre, but military science fiction/space opera always fascinates me more than the other types.

09 → How do you get ideas for your char­ac­ters? Describe the process of cre­at­ing them.
** Well, I usually work like this: create the plot, create the main conflict, create different standpoints to that conflict, pick the most interesting standpoints, create characters based on those standpoints. Obviously, having a bunch of different standpoints to one common issue leads to disagreements. Even characters who are otherwise close by blood or circumstance drift apart because of conflicting ideas. So, I do enjoy creating characters based on their morals and opinions rather than…I don’t know…what I used to do. I used to just say: “I want a character with purple hair” or “I want a character who likes to steal”. Now I insert those quirks after I flesh out the character’s mind. I think less of my characters as “That guy with the chain as a weapon” and more of “that guy who believes that the world needs a reset button”. I don’t know if that makes sense. It’s hard to explain how I think without drawn out charts and diagrams. Sorry. >_<

10 → What are some really weird sit­u­a­tions your char­ac­ters have been in?
** There are a lot of weird things scattered around the plot of Mythos, but the weirdest thing to me is Sebastian’s Club Hyperion. It started off as a silly meetup to celebrate his father’s existence (because Sebastian is pretty much Odin’s biggest fanboy XDD), but the meetups started turning into parties and then the parties started turning into this…really big and lively thing. It’s like an underground nightclub that only the most elite of elites know about, and can gain entry to. I even started to work on these comic strips where Sebastian will drag Odin out of his sleep to these Club Hyperion parties, and Odin will always run into the weirdest things and people there. The best part is that regardless of how much Odin protests going and participating in Club Hyperion, he always ends up passed out on the floor of the basement from partying too hard. It’s kind of funny for a man who is, to most people, very uptight and miserable. It’s like watching Batman go to a party. It gets really amusing.

11 → Who is your favorite/least favorite char­ac­ter to write?
** Yikes! This is hard. When it comes to the major characters, I really enjoy writing about them. It’s hard to choose a favorite. If I had to choose, though, I would choose Elda. Someone who lived THAT long must have a lot of interesting stories and views on life. That is what I tell myself when I write about her. My least favorite…maybe Vivienne. Only because she is not a character who changes much. I intentionally made her this way because I told myself: “Not everyone has to undergo some dramatic change.” Vivienne is one of those types of people who is comfortable with who she is and her approach to life, and she has no reason to change. That doesn’t make her a bad person at all. I like her because she is always content with who she is despite criticism, but writing about someone who never changes can get boring after a while. Really, the only people I truly hate writing about are the holier-than-thou nobles within the story. I hate people like that in real life, and I especially hate writing about their narcissistic tendencies in the story. It just makes me want to reach in the page, and push them into a ditch. LOL

12 → In what story did you feel you did the best job of world ­build­ing?
** Definitely Mythos. Mythos is the first story where I sat there and fleshed out the entire society of that world. I’m talking the different races, their traits, the religions, the various diseases, the popular debates, the celebrities, the popular past times, their school system, their prison system. I even spent an entire day just planning the various holidays and parades in Telluria. I sat there thinking about the types of stores that would offer certain types of specials based on these holidays. I always bring the smallest details of life to Mythos. It’s fun for me.

13 → What’s your favorite cul­ture to write, fic­tional or not?
** I am obsessed with Elves. I don’t know who to blame for that. LOL. Actually, I always blame The Legend of Zelda, but it was The Lord of the Rings that really got me fascinated with Elves. I love that while other creatures are passive to the very planet they dwell on, Elves can just sit there and have conversations with the trees and the flowers. I love how every feature they possess, from their pointed ears to their extensive lives, is relevant to their bond with mother nature. It’s all really neat. I feel a sense of peace just writing about Elves just…living in own culture. If I ever need to look to an IRL culture or group for inspiration with Elves, I look to the Buddhists in Tibet, and the “hippies” who have so much desire to protect the planet. Mostly, though, I just look to fantasy.

14 → How do you map out loca­tions, if needed?
** Almost always draw them. I just draw a map, and pinpoint various regions and major nations. Then I’ll list the various towns/villages within those regions or nations.

15 → A writer you admire, whether pro­fes­sional or not!
** Tolkien is a definite. I am fond of the writing in many games and mangas. You can’t play games like Mass Effect or read mangas like Berserk, and not admire the amount of creativity that went into those stories–even if the names of those writers are not as well known as say Tolkien. I definitely like R.A. Salvatore. I recently became a fan of Andrzej Sapkowski, and his almost poetic writing style. Or at least the translations seem poetic to me. It focuses less on perfect grammar and mechanics, and more on creating this…rhythm. When Geralt is doing battle, the sentences are short to give this feel of a fast yet exciting battle. When Geralt is in an emotional situation, every sensation is described. The dialogues are my favorite. When Geralt is talking to someone then all of the focus goes to that dialogue. What goes on around him is not focused on too much because you begin to feel like Geralt. You just focus on the words being said, and the body language while it is being said…and not so much the people in the background. I am a fan of a lot of authors and their style. It really is going to take forever to sit here attempting to break them each down. XDD

16 → Do you write roman­tic rela­tion­ships? Are you good with those? Do you write sex scenes?
** Yes. I do try to avoid them all together at times, but romance is a part of life. Even if that romance is one-sided. I believe that everyone understands how it feels to fall in love, and how it can fill you with so many strange emotions that you never asked for. It turns the most sensible person into this…irrational, passionate, jealous, determined, single-minded being. Romance is interesting. Am I good at writing about them? No. At least I am not good at writing about conventional romance. The roses and chocolate and wine type of romance is not my specialty at all. The romances in my stories tend to be tragic, or uninvited. It’s strange to say as someone who is married, but successful relationships are boring. LOL. I mean, when you’re in a stable relationship then it is great, but you don’t want to read about people planning date nights, dividing their paychecks to pay bills, or talking to each other while one person is on the toilet. You know, the type of things that long-term and stable couples tend to deal with on a daily basis and not think about. In fantasy stories, especially, where millions of life threatening things are happening at once, I just can’t see two characters saying: “Killing that dragon was fun. Want to go out for a latte?” So, I don’t know…As I said, I am better at writing about romance that is almost too complicated to ever become stable or long. Sex scenes…I don’t write those. Not because I don’t want to, but I haven’t really found a reason to write them into my stories. I don’t see sex as like the final boss of a blossoming relationship. Like romantic dinners and walks on the beach, it is just a means of bonding between two lovers, and does not really represent an important factor of successful relationship. Fun is necessary, but things like trust and communication always trump the fun things. Would I ever write a sex scene? Sure. Of course, it would be awkward for me because I am not familiar with erotic writings. The same way an erotic writer may not be familiar with Elves and dragons, but it’s not impossible or unreasonable. Maybe someday I’ll try for the hell of it.

17 → Favorite pro­tag­o­nist.
** Though the protagonist role is split between Odin and Elda, I am going to say Elda. She embodies everything I admire in a woman. I would want to be like her, or have my future daughter become like her. She is that type of woman. My favorite thing about Elda is that she is the one actually running the world. Yes, Odin is the emperor, but he finds almost all guidance and influence in his decisions during his time spent speaking with Elda. People write her off as a mere assistant to the emperor because she is a woman and his guardian, but they are wrong. Elda is constantly proving people wrong. She is constantly putting people in their place. She can be this…gentle flower of a woman, patching up wounds and cradling overemotional teenagers, and the next second she has her boot on someone’s neck. I can’t help but admire that. If anything, Elda takes up the traditional role of a man in a story while Odin takes up the traditional role of a woman. Elda is the one maintaining order and reason, and tirelessly tending to the emotional needs of the opposite sex in the story. In most cases, Odin is the one searching for emotional satisfaction in questionable places. Elda does not need that. No man has to fly to her rescue, or give her purpose in the story by loving her. She is unapologetically self-sufficient from start to finish. That’s the best way I can describe why I enjoy writing about a character like her.

18 → Favorite antag­o­nist.
** At the risk of sounding too poetic, my favorite antagonist is not a person at all. It’s an idea. It’s this thing that has no face or name; therefore, no one can blame it or train to fight it in battle at the end of the story. It’s almost like a poison that must be methodically removed from the masses in order for the mass to experience peace…or whatever their goal is. For example, take the movie Crash. There were some immoral assholes in that movie, but there was no single man or woman causing the conflict. The evil was racism, intolerance, and ignorance. This one idea of blaming an entire group of people for the fault of one or two gave birth to this very contagious illness of an idea. It really took a handful of people to (a)notice the evil, (b)accept that it was evil, and (c)stand against it. That is the type of antagonist I like in a story. Don’t get me wrong. I enjoy a villain in a snazzy costume as much as the next geek. I mean, that’s what I grew up on. But as I grow older, I stop putting evil on faces, and I start putting them on fallacies. Once more, probably too poetic. Sorry. 😦

19 → Favorite minor that decided to shove him­self into the spot­light.
** Elda’s sisters. Definitely. They are just a walking comedy act–all eight of them. I mean, there are a lot of comic reliefs in the story, but they are typical. You have the air-headed girl, the idiotic guy, the bad-behaving kids. Things like that. But you rarely see a group of women who are mothers, daughters, sisters, wives, teachers, writers, basket weavers, soldiers, and so many titles you wouldn’t commonly associate with “funny” or “comedian” who are just ridiculously blunt, perverted, and fearless in expressing their opinions. You kind of look at them and tell yourself: “No wonder Elda is so elegant and well-behaved.” You can almost imagine her constantly telling people: “They didn’t mean to say that! Please don’t get offended!” all of her life. LOL. I like them though. They do always steal the scene the moment they are in the scene.

20 → What are your favorite char­ac­ter inter­ac­tions to write?
** I enjoy writing the moments when a character takes off his/her mask, and confesses to another that…you know…” I can’t do this. I’m not as tough as you think. I am not a bad ass at all. Deep down, I am terrified.” Regardless of what type of society you are in, everyone is expected to play this role they don’t always agree with to please their family, their friends, their community, neighbors, their enemies. It is overwhelming for everyone. Not everyone can be like Vivienne, for example, and completely shut off their emotions. A lot of people don’t want to risk missing out on important emotions just to avoid the unpleasant ones. So, despite being unemotional like Vivienne most of the time and avoiding emotional people IRL, I enjoy writing about those emotional interactions that people have in secret. I like going beyond that emotional armor, and exposing the person that is really in there. Even for a brief scene.

21 → Do any of your char­ac­ters have chil­dren? How well do you write them?
** Odin has two sons, and Elda has one son (who I am considering making a girl >_>). It’s tough to write about children, so I don’t believe that I write them very well. That time between birth and adulthood is basically behaving like a sponge, and just absorbing all of this information and influence. It’s almost instinct to think: “Make the child behave like his/her parents”, but it’s not like that at all. You can have two extroverted parents, for example, yet have this introverted child. Children are molded more by experience, and less by genetics. That is something that I am trying to tell myself, you know? Sebastian and Silvain do not have to be like Odin the same way Evan does not have to be like Elda. In fact, they don’t even have to have a good relationship with their parents. A bad parent-child bond is not so uncommon, especially with teenagers. It’s…all really difficult. Even without being a parent, I can just see how difficult child rearing is through watching other parents.

22 →Tell us about one scene between your char­ac­ters that you’ve never written.
** Well, it is said from the very beginning that Odin was once married to a woman named Selene, but I’ve yet to write about their actual marriage. You only really hear about how they met, and why they are not married anymore (it is usually due to Selene’s death although I flip-flop between her death or just a divorce). As of late, I am growing tired of the “I used to have a perfect marriage until my spouse died” type of route. I much prefer the idea that Odin’s marriage was never solid. In fact, in one recent fragment (since I write random scenes rather than a chronological story, I tend to just call these random snapshots of the plot “fragments” of the story), Silvain is not Odin’s biological son, and he knows this, but he tries to play along for the sake of his family. In this same fragment, Selene is dead. However, it is not because of an illness or childbirth. She died while on a trip to visit the guy she was messing around with. The events revolving around Selene’s death, and Odin’s borderline disrespectful remarks about his deceased wife leaves this…rift between himself and his sons as they get into the typical adolescent “I KNOW THE TRUTH ABOUT EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD” thing and Odin gets into the typical adolescent parent’s “STFU NO YOU DONT YOU’RE A CHILD” thing. Back on point, I haven’t really written about the details of their marriage, rocky or otherwise, but I might do that later.

23 → How long does it usu­ally take you to com­plete an entire story?
** …I am beginning to think it is impossible for me to complete a story. LOL. But I won’t give up. The pleasure comes from the journey of creating a story as opposed to the bittersweet destination of finishing it.

24 → How will­ing are you to kill your char­ac­ters if the plot so demands it?
** If the plot demands it, I am willing. I just don’t believe in killing a character simply because the story is drawing to a close, and I need something interesting to happen. I find it impractical to have this experienced and almost superhuman hero suddenly die in the last battle out of some careless mistake…like not double checking if this uber-diabolical mass murdering villain is actually dead, or randomly deciding to flash a smile at a loved one in the middle of battle before “Ha ha! I stabbed you because you weren’t paying attention!” type of thing. Even the most novice fighter knows not to turn their back on an enemy who is not confirmed dead. It just seems like common sense. Sorry…I’m ranting. I just hate trite deaths like that. Or the: “Yes, I know you just chopped me into a million pieces, but I magically got back together while you were celebrating to pull this cheap shot attack, and kill you.” That type of thing I won’t do. But I do understand that if I choose to go one route in a story that I am basically in denial if I think that someone will not die as a result. For example, you can’t put six people in an all-out, decade-long war, and not expect at least one of them to die. You also cannot expect people to not die of natural or unforeseen circumstances. After all, deaths are not always dramatic. It’s sometimes just bad luck or a result of flat out carelessness. Things like that.

25 → Do any of your char­ac­ters have pets? Tell us about them.
** Evan has a pet since it is a tradition for Minthe rangers to have one. They’re more familiars than pets, to me, but…whatever. He feeds it. He cares for it. He fights with it. They’re practically family. So, it’s pretty much a pet. Evan’s pet is basically a giant cat. It’s the size of a horse, but it looks like a panther. For a reason I still have not explained, all the animals within the Minthe woods are fucking giants. LOL. Giant cats. Giant wolves. Giant boars (my favorite…until Nier stole it ;____;. Still keeping them though. I love boars. >_<). Giant insects and birds too. They’re all big enough to ride which is important for rangers since they travel such long distances to patrol every inch of the woods on a daily basis. Pets/Familiars are an undeveloped aspect of Mythos, so I am still working it out.

26 → Do you draw your char­ac­ters? Do oth­ers draw them?
** I draw all of my characters. I am comfortable with certain people drawing my characters (like Tiffa or, if I ever do it, an artist I hire to draw them), but I can’t imagine some random person just drawing my characters. It won’t feel terrible, but I will immediately start saying nitpicky things like: “Odin should not look so mischievous. It’s not his nature to be sneaky. No, Elda is not the type of person to wear jeans or pants. Why does Vivienne have such long hair? She would HATE that.” I feel annoying for thinking that way, but I’m sure a lot of artists are like that. For example, if you drew Lightning cheerleading or something, I’m sure people would be like: “WTF. This is stupid,” and they’re not even the ones who made Lightning.  LOL. It’s about character integrity. I don’t believe in changing characters, outside of comedy sketches, just because someone thinks that everyone should be more outgoing and happy, or more brooding and dark. That type of thing bothers me. Changing a character’s skin color/ethnicity also bothers me. Don’t do that. -_-

27 → Do appear­ances play a big role in your sto­ries? How do you go about design­ing your char­ac­ters?
** …Not really. If I could, I would just hit the random button on a character generator, and make a character based on that. I am just more interested in character personality than character appearance in this story (Mythos). In other stories, like magical girls or something, I would put more emphasis on appearance. I do think of color combinations, fashion sense based on personality, posture based on occupation, and so on. I don’t really have a set method of designing characters. Maybe I end up just choosing what comes to mind first without realizing it. ^^;;

28 → Have you ever writ­ten a char­ac­ter with phys­i­cal or men­tal dis­abil­i­ties?
** Yes. Silvain, for example, suffers from many physical ailments that make it difficult for him to function like a “normal” person. He cannot go outside when it is sunny, he has a difficult time with his motor skills, and he will often admit that he is too afraid to go somewhere alone out of fear of randomly fainting or dying. He has an illness that is fairly well known in the world of Mythos, but does not exist in this world. At least not that I know of. It’s more of a combination of real world illnesses/disabilities. As for mental disabilities, I would say that Odin suffers from a disorder that is most like PTSD. He is not your stereotypical and incredibly false depiction of a mentally ill individual that you see in movies. He’s not walking around in slippers with unkempt hair, talking to himself and spontaneously yelling at nonexistent people. You don’t really see the damage that life has done to Odin until you see him in private doing simple things. He is often disoriented, lost, and paranoid when he is not expected to be anything but himself. Around others, he finds comfort in sticking to the cold and undeniable facts since they do not require him to think too deeply and expose what an anxious individual he truly is. There are other minor characters with disabilities throughout Mythos and other stories too, but Odin and Silvain are the major ones.

29 → How often do you think about writ­ing?
** When I am not writing, I am thinking about writing. LOL

30 → Best source of inspiration?
** Without a doubt, books. But I do get a lot of inspiration from video games, animes, graphic novels/comics, and some movies. It is not too common, but I’ll sometimes draw inspiration from events in reality. It all depends. Outside of stories, I also draw inspiration from anyone who is passionate about an art. I am always motivated by people who are pumped up by their own imagination and creativity, and I will instantly put that energy towards my own imagination as a result. Artists and writers constantly inspire one another, I would say. It’s this cycle of inspiring, creating, and then inspiring others with that creation.

(( I will correct typos and other errors later. I have to head out now. >_> ))

Haven’t done one of these in forever.

1. Favorite band or artist?
— Favorite band? Daft Punk. Favorite artist? Hmm…can I pick a composer? Because I love Nobuo Uematsu and everything that he chooses to be.

2. Did you enjoy high school?
— I hated high school. I would honestly rather get body slammed for hours by some random athlete than return to high school.

3. Phrases you say a lot?
— “What in the actual fuck”, “Wow, seriously?”, “No, seriously, what?”, “I can’t”, “This blows dick for (random candy)”, “I don’t have time for this shit”, “Dude, stop”,”Oh, wooooooooow~!”, “That’s coooooool~!”, “I am legit (emotion),”

4. How do you handle stress?
— Headphones, soundtrack of choice at full volume, book to read or to draw in or to write in. Zone out and go on autopilot.

5. Do you have a lot of friends?
— Nope. I believe the less, the merrier. I think most recluses do. LOL

6. If you could live in a different city, where would you live?
— I’d like to live in any place where it snows or rains most of the time. So, basically, Seattle, England, or Canada.

7. Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
— I don’t know. Better off, I hope.

8. Believe in love at first sight?
— No.

9. Favorite genre of movie?
— Action/Adventure

10. Have you ever been in love?
— I am in love.

11. Do you move on quickly?
— Yes. Probably because I don’t get attached in the first place.

12. Do you create art?
— Yes.

13. Problem with today’s girls?
— Boys and girls have the same issue: they sell themselves short for the sake of love, attention, and acceptance. You were the fastest and strong sperm. As far as I am concerned, you are worthy because of it. Don’t bother seeking verification of your worth in others.

14. Problems with today’s boys?
— Answered in question #13

15. Do you day dream?
— A lot.

16. Do you miss anyone?
— Yes.

17. Are you close to your siblings?
— Not as close as I should be with them, but that’s not their faults at all. I just went full-on antisocial as I entered adulthood.

18. Pet peeves?
— Oh shit. Where do I begin? LOL. Invasion of personal space is probably my biggest pet peeve. Actually, no. Victim blaming is my biggest pet peeve. I actually yelled at someone for saying that a woman deserved to get raped because of something she was wearing. I don’t care if a woman is walking down the street with nothing on, don’t rape her! Don’t rape anyone! …I’m going to stop before I rant any further -_-. What else? I hate the notion that a person’s hobby determines their level of maturity. Reality stars are the perfect example of how “adult things” doesn’t make a person mature or intelligent. I hate people who tell someone suffering from a mental illness to just “get over it”. Maybe I should tell you to stop yourself from having periods or having erections because that’s what you’re doing when you tell someone with some type of mental imbalance to magically alter their own body. What else? What else? Overall, I guess I just hate anything or anyone who uses harmful behavior or says harmful things to force a person to become something they’re not. There has to be a point in your adulthood where you tell yourself: “It’s okay to have opinions or judgments to call my own, but it’s never okay to force someone to be something they’re not,” You know? If someone is happy and their happiness isn’t harming anyone else, just leave them alone. Life is hard enough without constant degradation.

19. Most attractive features of the opposite sex?
— Hmm, I don’t know. I tend to become attracted to a guy after I see him smile, so maybe smiles or lips are my thing. *shrug*

20. Do you think you’re attractive?
— I don’t think I am attractive or unattractive. I believe that I can always improve myself physically, but I don’t believe that I am beyond hope or that I need to surgically modify myself in any way to be pretty. It’s kind of hard to explain. If someone asked me if I am pretty, I would say yes. If someone asked me if I am ugly, I would say yes. I just feel confident about certain aspects of my appearance while feeling “blah” about other aspects. I don’t know. Thinking about how I look really bores me in the end. I’m content with my genetics, so I might as well move on to the things I’m not content with…like my drawing abilities, and financial crap. -_-

21. How old do you want to be when you get married?
— I’m already married. I honestly thought I’d get married when I was much older, but life happens.

22. How old do you want to be if you have kids?
— Actually, 25 was my “perfect age” in the past, but now that I am approaching 25, I am going to say that 27 is the “perfect age”. Don’t be surprised if I’m like 80, and I say “90 is the perfect age”. LOL! In the end, I will put aside parenthood so long as I feel emotionally and financially inadequate.

23. Have you ever gotten down dancing with someone you didn’t know?
— …Down dancing? I don’t even dance, so I’m just going to say no.

24. How do you clear your head?
— Video games. I don’t have time to think about myself when I’m worrying about strategy and plots. The moment that menu screen comes up, I instantly go in “Oh shit!” mode, and I just pay attention to whatever is shooting at me or attacking me or whatever.

25. Were you a good child?
— Hmm…I don’t know. I was quiet, and I lived in my imagination, but I was still a very sensitive child. The slightest hint of aggression made me want to hide and run away. I set myself up for a rebellious stage in my adolescence because I built an intolerance for negativity in my childhood. So, if I was “good” or “bad”, it was because I hated trouble, and I did just about anything to avoid it.

26. I love….
— Wow. Where do I begin? I love my husband. I love my cat. I love my family and friends. Yet, at the same time, I love to be alone. I love to draw, write, and read. I love to learn. I love when someone imagines an exciting world, and expresses it through beautiful writings, songs, and artworks. I love cats, dogs, fishes (especially jellyfishes), and turtles. Actually, I love all animals, even the ones that scare me since I believe that I can learn to love them. I love the sound of children laughing. I love watching the elements at work: fire burning, water undulating, forests growing, and wind blowing. That type of stuff. I love rain and thunderstorms. I love food…obviously. LOL. I also love to cook. I love anything that I can put work into, and see positive results later. I love pleasant memories. I love looking forward to things. I love counting down to exciting events. I love good jokes because I love to laugh. As phlegmatic and sometimes grumpy as I seem, I actually love a lot of things. Maybe too much. Maybe I am afraid that I have all the love in the world, and it will destroy me in the end. Even opening up about this is something I love, but I hate the negative things that may come from it. *sigh* I guess I’ll just end this answer here.

27. Do you smoke?
— When I’m at a point in my life where I feel stressed and powerless, smoking a cigarette seems like the only thing I can really do. It’s one of those things you won’t understand unless you do it. Outside of those moments, though, I don’t smoke.

28. Do you like to party?
— Absolutely not. Parties come with hundreds of anxiety attack triggers that I don’t need.

29. Do you get embarrassed easily?
— No. Then again, I am pretty much oblivious to things people do and say most of the time.

30. How are you feeling right now?
— Bored. It’s hot as hell, so I’m uncomfortable too.

31. What are you interested in?
— If it’s considered nerdy or geeky, I’m probably interested in it. I’m also interested in things considered “girly” or “boyish”. I don’t know. I just like whatever looks interesting.

32. Has it been a good year so far?
— Hell no. Fuck this year. LOL

33. What are you looking forward to?
–I look forward to the day when I am debt free. I don’t know what it’s like to say: “Oh, I have $500. What should I spend it on?” It just doesn’t happen. XD

34. Are you a hopeful person?
— Definitely a hopeful person. Hope keeps me excited about life. It’s only when I lose hope that I start to feel that life is pointless or that I am here for no reason.

35. Are you really flirty?
— Not even close. I don’t flirt, and I tend to respond to flirtation with annoyance.

36. What do you do before you fall asleep?
— Drink tea, write about whatever is on my mind so I’ll stop thinking about it, and then try to sleep.

37. Are you religious?
— Well, I’ve been told that Buddhism is more of a philosophy than a religion, and I agree with that. There is no worship or rituals in Buddhism (or at least the type of Buddhism I am being taught). You mainly focus on not harming others, and improving yourself. So, no, I wouldn’t call myself religious. But I am extremely fond of Buddhism.

38. What is your “type?”
— Introverted, intelligent, nerdy/geeky, funny, witty/sarcastic. Yeah…that’s basically my type.

40. Have you gone through any weird phases?
— My entire life is a never-ending weird phase. LMAO

41. Are you worried about anything?
— Yes. Mainly people and money. That’s about it.

42. Band or DJ at your wedding?
— Can I just take everyone involved in “Distant Worlds”, and make them play stuff for like…eight hours?

43. What you’re listening to right now
— Final Fantasy XIII-2/Mitsuto Suzuki & Origa: “Interval of Time”

45. Do you have any secrets?
— Why would I tell them? O_o

46. Is it easy for you to open up to people?
— No. But, for some reason, opening up to blank word document or notebook is okay with me.

47. Are you a hopeless romantic?
— No.

48. Would you move in with your bf/gf before marriage?
— I did, and I’m glad that I did. You don’t know how well you get along with a person until you’re around them 24/7.

49. Do you think sex is a key part of a relationship?
— More of a supplement than a key. You should eventually get to a point in your relationship where you are okay with not having sex since things “stop working” as you get older. Still, there is nothing wrong with appreciating it while it is there. Eh…talking about sex is uncomfortable, so I’m going to stop. LOL

50. What do you sleep in?
— These days, as little as possible. It’s hot as balls. In the winter, though, I pretty much wear anything I can find to keep warm.

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