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    Hello! My name is Kerrian. I am a 30-year-old New York native who currently lives in Georgia with my 32-year old Illinois native husband Mark. And our 8-year-old blue tabby furbaby Link. And, if all goes well, a baby girl in Summer 2018. That’s pretty much our little family. ^_^

    When I’m not doing family stuff, I’m usually absorbed in one hobby or another. My hobbies include, but are not limited to, drawing, writing stories, playing video games, playing tabletop RPGs, reading regular novels and graphic novels, watching anime, cooking, decorating and organizing everything, learning new facts,  and finding new music, sci-fi, or fantasy creations to obsess over.

    Overall, I’m just trying to live life to the fullest like everyone else. I’m sending good vibrations to everyone! I want us all to win, so keep fighting! Take care!


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YISA 005: A Place To Call Home

Feeling… Thankful
While Listening To“Riding (Day)” – Breath of the Wild



The past three days have been… adventurous. Let’s start with the first day. I was not awake when it happened, but Mark told me when I woke up Monday morning  that the power was gone. This is not really abnormal where I live. I would say every other month the power goes off for about 30 minutes to 2 hours, and it’s usually preceded by a scary explosion sound in the distance. Um… anyway… not a big deal. It was my assumption that with this whole hurricane ordeal we would just have to deal with the inconveniences for a few hours. That was before noon on Monday. Then came night time on Monday. I would say a good 8-10 hours passed, and we did not hear shit from the electric company besides “we’re working on it”. At that point we just had to make do. We went to Kroger, stocked up on canned foods, got our candles ready, got our flashlights ready, and just tried to have fun with it. “Fun” being Halli Galli and Scrabble and naps, basically. Lol. Oh, yeah. And everything within a five mile radius of our place was a dead zone, so I had no service on my phone either. Needless to say, it was an interesting day. I even found my Vita and played a shitload of games. FF Tactics, Xenogears, Chrono Cross, Final Fantasy VI–all the good shit I downloaded eons ago. All of that aside, Mark and I went to bed around midnight and told ourselves that we should definitely have power by Tuesday because we couldn’t go 24 hours without power… right? 



 … And this is the part in a sitcom where they cut to the next 24 hours, and the person who spoke too soon is in the exact same situation but 200% angrier. Lmao. Actually, I can’t say I was angry. I was just… disappointed. We get up Tuesday morning with no power and decide, “Fuck it. Let’s just go deposit this check (basically, Mark’s check from Publix for stocks).” We leave around 9am. …The fucking bank wasn’t opening until noon ^^. Go back home for FF Tactics and naps. Go back to the credit union three hours later. Ta da! Check deposited! With no issues! *victory fanfare* With the extra money, we stock up on the supplies we couldn’t get due to our limited funds beforehand, and we head back home for another day in the dark. But, honestly, that depressed the shit out of us. Mark suggested we go on an impromptu date, and I’m glad that he did. We had pho, we got another board game to play (Arkham Horror), we got some things to read (Saga 44-46), and then we headed back home to prepare for the night. Honestly, the moment I stepped foot in the house I was in a crummy mood. (1) I had this cloud hanging over me because I knew the remaining hot water that was in the water heater would run out soon, and (2) everything remotely electronic was about to die including our phones. After ranting with Mark about how annoyed I was by the whole thing we decided to check into a hotel. BEST DECISION EVER . Keep in mind that I have not stayed in a hotel room for years, so this was exciting for me. We checked in (after getting hounded with promotional bullshit that neither of us had the patience to deal with), went in our room, and we instantly felt better. First of all, this place (still here >>) has a mini-kitchen, a living room, a bathroom, and a room, so it feels like home. Secondly, we both went 24+ hours without a long, hot shower or TV or the internet or all the things we take for granted, so we were losing out shit. Lmao! Anyway, after settling in and having dinner that wasn’t in a can and eaten in the dark (*sobs*) we went to bed, intending to check out Wednesday morning whether or not the power was back to save money.



 Yeah… We didn’t go anywhere. Lol. That’s actually my fault. The change in environment made it really hard for me to sleep last night, so I probably got… two hours of sleep? We were about two hours from checking out and Mark was in the shower, so I decided to squeeze in a quick nap before packing everything thing. I wake up hours later, freaking out because it was way past noon, and Mark was like, “It’s okay. I added another day for us”. Thank you, mochi ! Naturally, I went back to sleep (lmao), and Mark got us breakfast/lunch/brunch/whatever while I was sleeping so… I cannot thank Mark enough. Seriously. Anyway, I eventually got my lazy ass up and joined Mark in doing the run around while we continued waiting out this lack-of-power ordeal. We checked up on baby cat (he pretty much ignored us lol), grabbed some more clothes, bought some things at Wal-Mart, walked around Best Buy, and then came back to the hotel to add another day since it didn’t seem like the power would return until the weekend. Or at least that’s what GA Power was saying. BUT–but–we got our power back! Of course, this happened like an hour after we added an extra day, but it is no biggie. We cancelled the extra day, so we’ll be checking out tomorrow afternoon and heading back home. Finally. I’m so homesick right now that it doesn’t make any sense. I can’t wait to go back home! 



 Well, that should cover my entire experience with Hurricane Irma. The TL;DR version is that I was mildly inconvenienced. Seriously. Three days without power is nothing compared to the people who died or lost loved ones or lost their homes or are still going without power right now. So, it goes without saying that I am extremely lucky. Whatever it is I bitch about here is tiny, trivial shit. I am fully aware of that. Just wanted to let that be known before I continue with some minor, pointless bitching I am about to do. So, time for the minor, pointless bitching that in no way compares to what others are enduring. Tomorrow when I go home I have to dump everything in my fridge. This is the part of the power outage that we were not looking forward to at all, but there is really nothing that we can do about it. The fridge will be cleaned out completely and then refilled with the essentials. Actually, there may be more than the essentials since Mark and I had this grand idea to have a tiny feast to celebrate several things. Coming through this hurricane unharmed, Mark getting a new job, our financial situation taking a major turn–these are all things that we wish to celebrate once we are back home and settled in. I already yelled “HAM” the moment we had this idea, so everything else is pretty much up to Mark. If there is a feast I will always have two questions: “Where is your ham? And where is your macaroni and cheese?” Lmao. Anyway, I look forward to it. I plan to spend all day cooking, and having plenty of leftovers for the next few days! It will be a good homecoming celebration–amongst the other things we want to celebrate. ^^



…Uh…I think that is it.

Sorry about the weird-ass format. I mentioned wanting to change it in the past, so I’m considering this image-friendly, colorful format with paragraphs instead of bullets. Of course, that all depends on how I feel. If I feel lazy then I will probably end up doing the same shit. What else…?

I think that’s it.

I hope everyone is doing okay. I’m very, very, very, very glad that my Florida and Georgia family and friends came through these hurricanes in one piece. I hope everyone else is doing okay, too.

Please, mother nature, no more hurricanes! 

YISA 003: Breakable, Unbreakable; Shakeable, Unshakeable.


  • If there is one thing I always worry about in life it is money. A lot of that has to do with the environment that I grew up in, but the rest of it is just living in a capitalist society where we don’t even show compassion for our sick unless they have money. Some call me a bleeding heart liberal/socialist. I just call that having a soul. Seriously, how do these people worship someone like Jesus and have absolutely no empathy whatsoever towards the sick or poor? This got political fast. Whoops. Then again, not being political in this current society… it is like not sweating when it’s hot. It’s just a reaction to the things that are always in my face. I am working on barriers. Like, what is the real world equivalent of deodorant in that metaphor? Avoiding all human interaction? Never watching TV or going on social media? Ugh. I am so off the point that I might as well move the point to next bullet. LMAO
  • Once the worry about money goes away, I can’t really say that I give a shit about any job. My loyalty is to money when it comes to careers. I sure as fuck don’t wake up at stupid hours in the morning to drive through stupid traffic and deal with stupid coworkers because it’s fun. Once money is out of the equation, workplaces can burn to the ground for all I care. I think once I realize that then I lose all attachment and I feel better about things. My priority is always the survival of my loved ones and myself. Everything is just needless bullshit. I am young. The world is my oyster. Opportunities are abundant if you look for them.
  • Anyway, I am on the hunt for a new job. That is the gist of it. I am tired of working in this biased environment where if you are not a middle-aged yuppie with children then you don’t get the same privileges as everyone else. It makes sense that I should have the same responsibilities as my peers, but it doesn’t make sense that I should receive the same privileges as them. Does that make any sense? The reward for working at a company for a long time is your paycheck. You do not get to isolate and make examples of younger, newer people because you have your prejudices. I am just tired of it. I am tired of being talked down to like a child. I am tired for accepting punishment for mistakes while watching my older coworkers get free passes to do anything they want. Changing my shift by 30 minutes is considered a special privilege. Meanwhile, my coworkers can come in two hours later than the standard start of a shift and leave hours earlier than the end of a standard shift, and this is fine. I have no right to request the same flexibility because I do not have the burdens of old age and children. Yes, by all means, punish me for having a miscarriage and not jumping on that flaming shit of a boat again. While you’re at it, punish me again because I was still in diapers when you started working for this company. That sounds completely fair.
  • … I did enough ranting with Mark. I think I had tears of frustration for like five minutes before Mark set me straight and reminded me there are some things worth crying for and this job is not it. I need to do more than find a better, fairer opportunity. I need to go back to school. That is my one goal: go back to school. Do something more with the brains that I have then have others pat me on the head for being “a smart girl”. And, damn it, if you are in the same boat then do something better for yourself too. I have too many friends who are brilliant as hell but they accept shitty treatment because they are afraid of taking the risk. I weep for them because I know exactly why they sell themselves short. I am glad that Tiffa encouraged me to consider going back to school. It really lit a fire in me that this shit job has just been dousing in gasoline unintentionally. I suppose I should say thank you? …No. I’ll pass.
  • I dread being the type of person who talks incessantly about their work problems so let’s just end it here. I am breaking my own rule after all. Once I step foot into my apartment I never talk about work. Leave all of that bullshit at the door, right?
  • Uh… What else is on my mind?
  • I will have four days off come labor day weekend, so I want to write like crazy.
  • Oh, right. I could not begin my Witcher 3 replay because my disc is damaged (WHY?). So now I have to download the GOTY edition which is pretty sweet as far as deals go, but it will not read my old files because my copy and the GOTY copy are considered two completely different games. So… yeah… no new game + for me. :’)
  • I might move on to my Dragon Age: Inquisition replay. I abandoned it last year, but now that I have the complete edition with all of the DLCs and special items I want to get back into it immediately. I was going to restart as a human warrior but… Knight Enchanter. I have to be a Knight Enchanter aka Dragon Slayer. LOL. I’ll stick to the elf mage that I made for now.
  • Um… I don’t know what to say about these Final Fantasy XV related updated. The pocket edition of FFXV looks pointless. The PC version of FFXV is not pointless but it is irrelevant to a non-PC gamer like me. The Assassin’s Creed DLC-thing is… okay? I mean, I love Final Fantasy and I love Assassin’s Creed… but seeing them together is kind of confusing. LOL. Noct looked really cool in his assassin gear though, and I like the idea of being an assassin in Lestallum while the rest of the chocobros are just hanging out somewhere. At least it’s not like the Chocobo Festival where Noct is completely alone, you know? Plus, Iggy and Prompto looked so adorable in their assassin gear. Gladio, on the other hand, is just… Gladio. He’s so brawny and muscular that he just looks grossly attractive in everything he wears. Yeah, yeah, I know. Gladio is hot, water is wet, bears shit in woods, etc. Anyway, I’ll play it. No one asked for this (LOL) but I’ll play it. I am a bit annoyed that Square made FFXV fans submit this survey asking what they wanted–and I believe the results were “MOAR ARDYN”–and didn’t make any content based on the options, but at least they’re not pulling a Bioware. Fucking livid that there are no DLCs coming for Mass Effect: Andromeda at all but multiplayer garbage. Then again, everyone was so vocal about their hatred for this game that I am not surprised. I did not hate it or love it. I was looking forward to Bioware pulling a Square and dropping all types of new content in response to their fans being rightfully pissed about an incomplete product being sold to them at the price of a new product. *sigh* When did the gaming world become this dramatic? I remember when games showed up finished, DLCs came in the form of sequels that were full games, and no one was having a complete meltdown over bad games like they do now. Even No Man’s Sky, which was comically insulting to the gamers that waited for it, received so much vitriol that its subreddit had to be shut down (temporarily?). It’s that bad now. -_-
  • Last episode of Game of Thrones on Sunday? SHIIIIIT. This season feels so incredibly, incredibly, incredibly rushed, but it’s kind of like ice cream in the summer. Even though most of it melts away before you can enjoy it, the ice cream itself is still delicious. All of these battles are delicious. Dany x Jon are delicious (I am disturbed how much this series made me passive to incest D:). Tormund’s growing infatuation with Brienne is delicious. I can still enjoy it as it is.


I think that is it. I am thinking about getting a premium WordPress account so that I can really enjoy this blog more than I already do. Just ranting about dumb shit… it feels so good. LOL. But as good as it feels I really need to start thinking about making a blog just for my art and stories. I’m on it. >>

Good vibrations~~~ Fight the power~~~ All that good shit~~~

YISA 002: Britannia Ain’t Shit

That Pitioss Ruins theory had me fucked up for a good hour. Anyhoo… here is Ifrit not getting the love he deserves and being hot (full pun intended) despite the lack of eyebrows. Love you, boo. :*


Four day break is almost over. *cries like Professor Farnsworth*

Anyway, Mark and I binge watched all 50 episodes of Code Geass this weekend, so I’m going to talk about that… through quotes rather than lists because there are enough reviews of the show out there. Oh yeah. Enjoy your was-that-fireworks-or-did-someone-gundown-my-neighbors day! Let’s all eat BBQ until we hate ourselves–which is the only way to eat BBQ, lbr. Good vibrations~~~~

BTW: Spoilers or whatever.


Me: “I really want to enjoy [Code Geass] but all these derpy looking faces are testing me.”

Me: “Why is everyone so obsessed with pizza in this show?”
Mark: “I think they partnered with Pizza Hut.”
Me: “Shameless advertisement.”
Mark: “I know, right? Like people are just going to order pizza because they saw it in an anime.”
Us: *laughs*
Us: *orders pizza ten minutes later*

Mark [after missing a few episodes to play Diablo 3]: “How the hell did Ohgi end up with Villetta?”
Me: “She got shot and Ohgi found her and was like ‘this lady is our enemy!’ and then took her home and saw anime tiddies and said ‘this lady is important to me!”
Mark: “In his defense he really didn’t have a choice after anime tiddies.”

*Arthur bites Suzaku for the 1000th time*
Us: “Arthur is Link.”

Us: *roasts Lelouch constantly for his ridiculous poses*

Mark: “Maybe Lelouch is trying to throw gang signs.”
Me: “What gang is he supposed to be representing?”
Mark: “That anime protagonist who really wants to kill their dad gang.”

*Shirley gets worked up after seeing Kallen and Lelouch together*
Me: “Less getting jealous, more murdering people in the name of bringing down Britannia.”

Mark: *sees Nina making weird noises in the dark while looking at picture of Euphy*
Mark: “Did she just do what I think she did?”
Me: “Yeah…. I’m going to pretend it never happened.”
Mark: “Okay, me too. That was disturbing”
Me: *refuses to pretend it never happened and spends the whole series shocked that Nina did that*

Me: “Is being a dick hereditary or something? What is up with the Britannia royal family?”
Mark: “It did skip Nunnally and Euphy, so maybe the dick gene isn’t that strong.”

Us: *cracks up every time we see the girl Lelouch used his geass on doing her daily mark on the wall*

*When Shirley’s classmates go to her dad’s funeral in their school uniforms*
Mark: “Wow, they couldn’t take five minutes to change into funeral clothes?”
Me: “The animation budget was probably tight. I’m sure Shirley understands.”

Me: “What do you think is worst? The Red Wedding or Euphy murdering the shit out of all those elevens?”
Mark: “Well… at least she asked them nicely to die first.”

*After finishing season one of Code Geass*
Me: “I hate this fucking show.”
Mark: “Right?”
Mark: “Does Funimation have the second season on here?”
Me: “Yeah, I’ll start it up.”

Me: “I feel like Lelouch’s dad is taking out his frustration with his shitty wig on the entire planet.”

Us: *every time Rolo shows up* “Who the fuck is this guy?” “Who the fuck are you, Rolo?” “Go home, Rolo.”

*Cornelia throws a knife in V.V’s forehead and he’s still alive*

Mark: “I know this is an anime, but how the hell did Nunnally survive that explosion?”
Me: “She ducked.”

Me: “How do you look your newborn son dead in his face and name him ‘Schneizel’?”

Mark: *in Lelouch’s voice* “You can’t defeat me! My name is in the title of the show!”

Me: “Everyone needs a C.C. Wouldn’t it be nice to have a random anime girl give you powers and eat pizza with you and help you take over the world?”

*Nunnally tries to chase Lelouch in her wheelchair and falls down the stairs*
Me: *in Nunnally voice* “Curse you, Lelouch! How did you know that stairs were my ultimate weakness?”
Mark: “If she didn’t want to fall she should have ducked again.”

Me: “I will suspend logic for flying robots and magical powers, but someone being unaware that they’re holding a conversation with a prerecorded video because the other person predicted everything they would say is where I draw the line.”

*After Kallen kisses Lelouch*
Mark: “I swear every person in this show wants Lelouch’s dick.”
Me: “Lelouch’s dick also has a geass. Theory confirmed.”

*Show ends*
Me: “Wow… What the fuck, man?”
Mark: “Fuck this anime…”
Me: “…You know they announced season three a few months ago, right?”


Everything in between was just our dweeb hobbies or whatever, but I’m well-rested and recharged and super grateful that I finally got to watch this show. Don’t take our general bitchiness the wrong way. We like Code Geass now. LOL

Uh, we watched some other stuff like the season premiere of Killjoys, Cheer Boys, Hyouka, etc. but I’ll probably talk about those another time. Oh, and the end of Kado: The Right Answer. That was an… interesting ending.

Okay, that’s it for now. 😛


YISA 001: It Me

Welcome to the first YISA–or “Yes, I’m Still Alive”–entry.

Basically, I’m such a lazy piece of shit that writing a full entry can be a bother at times, so I’m just going to put these little updates in between to give excuses for why I am not updating regularly. Go, me~

So, here are my excuses… um… reasons for not updating regularly:

  • Breath of the Wild has consumed my life.
  • The Breath of the Wild OST has me shedding nonstop tears.
  • Nier: Automata has consumed my life.
  • The Nier: Automata OST has me shedding nonstop tears.
  • Mystic Messenger has consumed my life.
  • Otome games in general have consumed my life.
  • More tears.
  • I still love FFXV and I always need to spend time with the boys. :*
  • From Monday ’til Friday I am basically a tired, irritated mess and I will rip your face off if you try to talk to me before I have my coffee. ^^
  • Saturday and Sunday are my days to cleanse my soul and if anyone tries to take that from me then I will rip more faces off. ^^;;
  • I’m writing my story. And when I’m not writing my story I am thinking of things to write in my story.
  • I’m working on my art regularly. I feel and see myself improving. I amaze myself somtimes. Huhuhu~
  • When I am not doing one of the above on my free time then I am either living at Studio Movie Grill with Mark (lmao), watching dumb shit on YouTube, or catching up on TV shows I missed.

… So, there it is. I really want to get into all the wonderful, amazing, beautiful, cleansing, heavenly, divine hobbies of mine, but they keep piling on and on and on… which is great for me tbh. Mass Effect: Andromeda is right around the corner and then Episode Gladiolus and then Persona 5 after that. YES. I AM READY.

Okay, that’s about it. Those are all my excuses/reasons for not being active.

I want to post a detailed entry soon so I can really get into all the things I have been adoring lately, but alas… I am but one fangirl with limited time and energy. #firstworldproblems

Aight. That’s it. Daylight is burning faster thanks to losing an hour, so I need to get on it before bedtime creeps up on me like it always does. Hahaha… I want another vacation so bad. In time… In time…

Alrighty. Sending good vibrations~~~~

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