072: I Go Humble

☆彡 It’s always fun being told by others what I prioritize in my own life. You know, because someone who wears the same $20 beat up sneakers for years is really bothered by the idea of not having $500 high-fashion shoes. I think what I’m going to do with people like that is find some random thing they’re not even interested in, and shame them for not being interested in it. Just to show them how moronic their mentality is. Then when they look really confused and point out that they’re not even interested in the thing I’m shaming them for not being interested in, I’ll hand them a card that says: “Congrats! You finally get it! It only took 500 years!”

★彡 Quick reviews of movies I saw recently: Mama was a disappointment, Cloud Atlas was as interesting as it was complex, Teddy Bear is everything I hope to find in an independent film, and Dancer in the Dark was depressing. I’m also getting into Welcome to the NHK and Revolutionary Girl Utena. Not movies, I know, but I still love them both. I will start on Steins;Gate soon. I saw the last Berserk movie and I am officially done with the eclipse and even everything pre-eclipse. So…yeah…if it’s Berserk and it’s not related to the Millennium Falcon arc and beyond then I don’t want to watch or read it. Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to think about that third film and weep.

☆彡 Shoutout to Daniel for letting me know that Fable 3 was free with XBox Live Gold. I know for a fact that I would have missed out on that because I always do.

★彡 I burned water today. I should get a sticker or something for that.

☆彡 I wish I had a dollar for everytime someone played on the fact that I don’t speak much by telling me that I talk too much. 

★彡 So, my 3DS is now a portable game system, camera, sketchbook, diary, pedometer, and mp3 player. It’s basically my life. Oh, and I watch Netflix on it if I’m stuck somewhere lame that happens to have wifi. So…it’s safe to say that I’m attached to it. Still deciding what to name it though. I’m slightly set on Utena.

☆彡 The same people who pressure me to “come out of my shell” are the same ones who judge me relentlessly when I do. It really sickens me that some individuals are so eager to be hateful that they will drag individuals out of whatever environment they enjoy just to hurt them. I will never understand why some humans are so amazing that it fills me with happiness for days, and others are such absolute shit that it makes me wish I didn’t have to live on this planet with them. There never seems to be an in-between.

★彡 I really have nothing to say about the Paula Deen ordeal. Racists are foolish and they’re never saying shit.

☆彡 *casually puts “Giant”, “Black Ocean”, and “Leave Me Alone” by Imeruat on repeat until the end of time*

★彡 Thursday, before Mark left for his trip, I cried nonstop. It was a mess. Seriously, we were eating dinner and then out of the blue I started sobbing and eating at the same time. Not cute. I promise. Then when he was actually gone, I had a meltdown–just crying and crying and crying all of Friday. Then around Friday night, I stopped crying and I’ve been pretty calm since then. Actually, on Saturday he kept sending me messages to see if I was okay and I had to tell him: “YES. I’M FINE. PLEASE GO ENJOY YOUR TRIP AND LET ME WATCH ANIME.” LOL

…But I really miss him. I’m sure I shut off my emotions because I didn’t want to spend this entire time crying, but the moment I see him again, I’ll probably cry again. He’s the Guts to my Caska. We are just…nauseatingly inseparable. Even on the phone, we both talked about how strange it feels. It’s that feeling I get when I leave the house and I left something important behind. I’m likely to spend the entire day dwelling on it not being there with me. It just feels really unsettling…and it kind of makes everything less enjoyable as a result. Bah, getting teary eyed. I’m going to move on to something else…

☆彡 I can watch this video for hours. It’s so perfect:

★彡 On one hand, I believe everyone has the right to be angry and frustrated sometimes. On the other hand, I don’t believe I have the right to be angry and frustrated at all.

☆彡 It disturbs me that bullying a person can become such a cultural norm that those who don’t bully them are encouraged to. After I told someone that I don’t think it’s right to body shame Kim Kardashian (not that she needs a reason to gain weight but…you imbeciles making fun of her do understand how pregnancy works, right?), she told me: “Kim Kardashian is a piece of shit. You shouldn’t feel bad about making fun of her.” …Really? And what are you for making fun of a pregnant woman? Not a piece of shit?

★彡 The Sonic The Hedgehog 2 OST gives me life.

☆彡 Bjork’s best album, for me, was definitely Homogenic…actually…Debut. No. Vespertine. FUCK.

★彡 The following video game characters are ruining my life:

In other news, Emilia Clarke is still ruining my life. Every time I see a picture of her, my reaction is pretty much: “Can you not?”

☆彡 Don’t embarrass yourself by threatening to terminate your relationship with me if I don’t do what you want. If you’re the type of person who constantly tries to control me, there is a 100% chance that I’ve been waiting for you to get lost long before you considered the thought.

★彡 I like having clean hair, but I hate washing my hair and conditioning my hair and letting it sit for so many minutes and then washing it again and then drying it and then straightening it. It’s like…two damn hours just to get my hair clean and manageable. That shit gets me heated. Don’t even tell me to go to the salon because I cannot put into words how much I hate other people touching me. So, I don’t do salons and massage parlors or wherever else I have to pay someone to make me uncomfortable. *sigh*

☆彡 “Santi-U” scares me, yet I listen to it constantly. Why?

Well, I can bitch and moan all I want but I have to wash my hair. Stat. So, I’m going to go do that. Perhaps two hours is enough time to come to a decision about getting Nights: Into Dreams on XBox Live. Because I’ve been thinking about it for such a long time. Perhaps I’ll spend my other 400 points on Fable 3 shit like new hairstyles and dog breeds. OR I can get another game. Hmm…okay, sure. Why not.